~friendship - transcendence - surreality~

2012-01-05T19:53:00.002+08:00

我一直以为，如果有一件事在让你心痛，难过，伤心...那你第一应该做的就是原谅。原谅那些伤害你的人。

但是在这世上最难原谅的人，是你自己。

如果不管怎样，你还是原谅不了，那就把它忘了，早忘早好，别挂在心上，别为了它而心痛。

但谁也知道，有些事，你不能就这样忘掉...尤其是如果，你第一步走不上...那就是刚说的原谅自己。

如果你忘不了，那意思是，那件事对你太过珍重，你也许不应该就这么放手，坚持下去，直到你觉得你能不对自己撒谎地说，我的的确确尽了我的所有，我能不后悔地把它放走，不再为它而痛。

做不到所说的一切...意思是，你是软弱的人吗？心软，不能对自己说，放手，往前看，继续走...是这样吗？
还是，做不到，反而是一种强壮，毅力，我所珍惜的一切，我一定会坚持，不管多痛多难过，我不放弃，因为我决定了，这是我想走的路，风吹雨打，只要我依照我相信的理由走下去，我心里知道，我满足了。

我不知道，我不想再想下去了。

2011-05-30T12:50:00.004+08:00

一切科技的物品好像突然决定不想跟我合作。

不知怎么的，我手机发了一样神经，有些本来存在收信集中的短讯不知不觉中跳进已发出的短讯中，而一些存在某某地方的短讯竟然繁殖了，现在我有大量一抹一样的短讯在收信集当中。很幽默吧！不，这不是最佳点...我手机昨天变出的最厉害的魔术竟是...曾经删除掉的短讯，精确复活出现在我的收信集中。我的的确确删除过喔。甚至去年删除过的短讯又 pop 出来了。会恐怖吗？我根本没从高处掉过（应该没吧），弄湿过（湿也许有，但没到很惨的地步吧），虐待过，甚至骂过我手机。也许今天，科技多么地发达，自己也开始进行发展了，竟能变得如此的神奇。应该在那日本戏剧“奇妙物语”中演一幕。
也许...到时候换架手机了。

还有，我一直不能输进我twitter 的户口。网站下面一直写着什么error on page 很搞笑地，我的twitter 能有多大的error 我问你呀，我跟随的人就只有四个耶。而且，当我按按那error 看是到底怎么回事的时候，出现一个“the object does not support this property or method”。这句倒是有点幽默感，但当你看下一句时，就发现它写着一行“above property is not an object (null)” 哈哈这简直是在开我玩笑。但我很想问问，这很平常吗。还是我是科技白痴。照我多常使用SNS 来看，我也许应该笑的是我自己。

嗨...我最近好累。不是体累，我身体可是非常精神。现在叫我和三个对手一对三切磋，我随时奉陪。放马过来。
不，累的是我脑与心。也不只为了一件事。我钢琴党...我已想尽办法怎么搞好一切了。还好，我自己是跟我团员很好。但在我团员当中，有些人正想互相残杀。我本来想在组织的演奏会中弹一两首，但我现在真的没心去演琴了。组织这表演，我似乎是孤军作战...说成这样，我好像是在怪我团员吧...我并不是，能怪的只有我自己。怎么办？取消表演？那我彻底失败了...不，有一份工作，我会把它搞好的。相信自己，相信大家，希望我这么说不是在对自己撒谎。

最近弹琴弹得好晚，好累。每晚默默看着电脑，什么也不做，有时寻找一两个好笑的影片，有时使用网上的词典，自己的词典，学学新日文。其实还没确定去不去日本。但我绝对不会在我团员需要我带领的时候把我钢琴党丢下不管。看情况。

我想写歌！

2011-05-26T01:15:00.002+08:00

"look! an INVISIBLE man!"

"I can't see the STOP sign over there."

“我根本没听到你上星期说的谢谢。”

how profound! 也许这世界还有救！

2011-05-12T21:47:00.001+08:00

好久没写点什么了。有段时间，我似乎有种感觉，写也有什么用？我也不大是位很善于随时在某人可看见的网上抒发感情，录下快乐与痛苦。最近，快乐与痛苦...双情也挺常浮现。现在最大的感觉也只是后悔内疚，不能相信我变得那样的自私。等宽恕，也难...但我还是收我真情。

考试过了，一切麻烦，恶心的事务已完成。只剩下一个...亏我变得这钢琴党的团长，现在一个大责任赋予我！搞笑，我根本也没要求这份工作！但已交到我手中了...我会尽力给它搞好。幸好我团员也肯符合大家所有的责任，不然我这下可糟了。也很幸好我团员当中有位会日文的朋友！也还会喝日本米酒！但不知为什么，他就是不肯和我说日语。其实，大多数一起学日文的朋友都不大善于在课室外讲日语。学又不练，学得好吗？但我不怪他们...也许还不够信心。但我不在说我日语好！还是非常的烂...嗨，不晓得几时会到，能在日常生活中以日语和别人谈天的程度。甚至还要在日本找工作？！哇，高目标哦。

其实，很奇怪地，我是讲中文长大的，我最精通的语言也可能该是中文吧。说话上，我中文的确最流利。我的英语还可以吧。日语...简单话是可以，一到不马上认的词汇，或到口述好的人...慌了，变哑巴。但读呢...我中文变得最差了。也许是因为我长久没读，写中文了。我捡起中文报纸，读得好辛苦。英文，还是我读得最迅速的语言。那在电脑上打字呢，又是另外一个技巧！这方面，我中文也最差！很不能相信，我用日文在电脑上打字，还比中文快！中文很难打吗？lol!

唉...语言的魔法真奇妙。可以的话，我还要学多几个语言。韩国语也挺有趣...我会一些意大利语，也许该追求一下。但我生活中唯一的最重要...我不想这里说，有些人也已知道了。那是我会花费再多的精力的理由。回去练琴吧。

2011-04-29T00:16:00.002+08:00

I'm still alive. Will find time to post some time.

想跟大家说声，我还活着。有时间再写些东西。

まだ生きているよ。時間があったら、ポストする。

2011-01-18T22:05:00.005+08:00

I am not really so on about making new year resolutions...I make resolutions to myself randomly all over a year anyway. But hopefully, by the end of this year, I am at least partially fluent in simple conversation Japanese.

The rubbish bin in my room is filled totally with papers and music score sheets, full of writing and cancels over and over. My inspirations are bleeding and are all gone. I cannot even string 2 song phrases together anymore. I don't know what has happened. I wish I could flow from song to song like I could before. Now after playing the piano for just an hour, I close it.

Today, I walked past a busker, you know, one of the people who sit or stand at the side of the road, playing a musical instrument, with a cup or box in front of them, hoping to get a little money. This person was playing a small electric keyboard, and I think he was blind, or at least vision impaired, his eyes were white. But what made mi think was the sign beside him...it said "I'm sorry, I cannot see you, but thank you for appreciating my kind of music".

I've actually thought about this a few times before but, reading that sign just made mi think a little more. Every time I walk past a busker, or stop to drop a few coins into their little cup or box, I always feel a sense of sorrow for them. Of course other people will say, "that is what they want you to feel, then you will give them money". But it is not money that I am thinking of. I don't really feel sorry for buskers or people who ask for alms because they are poor or hungry or thirsty. Ok well maybe I do, but that's not the main reason.
The thing that makes mi feel sorry for them is that they are lonely. Every day, maybe hundreds of people walk past them, but almost all people do not even see them. They sit in a same place all day, playing a guitar or harmonica, trying to sing, and for the whole day they are among so many people, but still they are alone. I sometimes wonder how terrible it must feel for them, to look up from their instruments, and see the people happily walking past them and chatting in groups and having fun together, but for their life, they must continue playing their instruments, all alone. Some of them may not have families, they will go home to an empty house every day, and try to live on a few dollars every day.

Even if some person is poor, but still they have a family and many friends that they can depend on, share life's hardships with, then they may still be happy, because I think, it is the people in our lives who make a life truly worthwhile. But these people are alone, and they will probably live the rest of their lives in a solitary way, forgotten by society. A lonely person is like a small weed in a flower garden, too small to be noticed by the gardener. Every day it will see the flowers around it blossom and bloom beautifully, but it alone is forgotten and unseen, and after awhile it will die without anyone even noticing. And every time I walk past a busker or alms person, I cannot help feeling, that they are terribly lonely. I wish that I could do something for them. I cannot give them my company, so I give them a few of my coin, not for money, but hopefully to let them feel that at least there is still someone out there for them.

Maybe after reading this, no one will believe I am an economics student. I guess I am thinking a little much again, but it's just a feeling I have.

happy new year, and my thanks to all

2010-12-31T22:09:00.013+08:00

It is a day late, but a happy new year to everyone reading this post =) hope everyone had an enjoyable new year day, and wishing all a great 2011.

2010 has closed...and I think it was a wonderful, miraculous year for mi. Innumerable memories that I will remember forever and countless times, and moments that truly made this year beautiful. I just, want to write some small thank you here for some people who have made this year so special. It is a terrible small way to return my gratitude to the people who have colored in the illustration to my life, but I just want to say some small things to everyone.

To my family and my parents...thank you for supporting mi in many big or little ways, and for putting up with all the noise of piano and harmonica in the house all the time...I'm so sorry, I cannot promise you that I will reduce that noise...but I can do promise that I will try to make it nicer. But thank you for all the help and encouragement you have given mi, in all that I do, always being there for mi, my gratitude is with you always.

At the beginning of the year, through January and February...it was the road to ORD. 2 years of army life, that I fight through with my dear brothers in my company...we would never have made it to ORD without each other. We just saw each other again a few weeks ago though, and it was a great time too. Thank you, first, to Arthur, for being my most strongest team member in Taiwan, for looking out for mi and helping mi out in many different ways, I would have never made it through 72km without you. To Edmund, Kwok Hoe, Sunny, Yeow Hwee, Raeger, Andrew and Derry, for being my closest friends in the platoon...without you guys, army life was still bearable...but with you all, army life was memorable. Thank you for making my time in the platoon enjoyable and a phase of my life I will look back on with a smile and laugh.
To Shoban, my very first buddy in my first 2 months of the army...we were the best team in our platoon then, I say...thanks for all your support buddy! To Roderick and Zheng Yu, my Hong Kong brothers, thank you for the happy times spent in Hong Kong, and for being wonderful mates in training as well.
May the comradeship and bonds we forged through sweat and blood these 2 years remain strong over our lives...if you guys ever need mi, I will do my utmost to be there for you all, strength and honor, always.

Next, to the time I spent in Bedok Green, as a relief teacher. Thank you, first, to Tohby, for securing the place for mi even before my ORD, and to Mdm Tay, Ben's mother, for allowing mi into the job, and teaching mi many things about...teaching. Thank you to Leonard, Virginia, Xuezhen, Jasmine and the other full time teachers, for making the staff workroom full of laughter and funny moments, for the silly stories we all shared and the experiences we had with each other.
Thank you also, to my classes, for making my time as a teacher a memorable experience for mi. 3E1, 3N1, 4E1, 4E4, 5N1, all of you guys, are great people in your own right, and I believe in all of you as much as I believe in anyone else. Thank you for always calling out to mi when you see mi, you are all truly not students, but friends to mi. Look towards your goals, and go far!

Now to the people I have met in Japan, right after my job at Bedok Green ended.
Japan is a beautiful, enchanting country, full of wonders both natural and technological. I would have enjoyed it definitely even I had gone alone, or just with the good General. But with all of you, it was the most memorable holiday I had ever had in my life and this memory, this chapter of my life's story, I will treasure and look back on with fond thoughts. To Miki, Shun, Marcus, Sara, Shota, Kohei, Tomomichi, Yuma, Mr Yamanari and Mrs Yamanari and Miki's grandmother, Mr Kohara and Mrs Kohara, and Mr Kamakura...thank you for making the week we saw each other, a week where I felt the world is truly kind to mi. The short time we spent was like no other I have ever spent in another country and I will cherish these memories and moments always and always. Special thanks to Miki and Mr and Mrs Yamanari, and Shun and Mr and Mrs Kohara for letting us stay at your houses...your generous hospitality touched mi deeply and I will never forget it.
Some time, let us meet up again. All of you, wherever you are in the world, you are ever dear to mi...any aid you need, if I can offer it, you will find it in mi, always.

To my friends in school, in SMU, thanks for being good study partners...though I admit I prefer studying on my own, sorry for all the times I ran off. Thanks to Jun Zhi for sharing my interest in Japan and Japanese language, and for all the weird talks and funny times. To Zi Jun, for listening to my silly dreams of music and Japan and for sharing MRT rides back home. To Jesslyn, for trying to offer your help and ears, I'm sorry I preferred not to talk much then, but thank you so much for offering. Hope we both get the summer study programme! To Yan Ru, thanks for the help you offered at the start of my term and for all the advice you gave mi...we still haven't met up for lunch!

To my friends in my Bunka Japanese class, thank you for making the class awesome and fun...Elvin, Joshua, Dylan, Jiawei...hope to see you again at Bunka cultural events! And to my teachers, 正田先生と山本先生、日本語教えることにありがとうございます！僕の質問が多いから、ごめんなさい！でも、先生たちは本当にいい先生です！

Ben, the good General, thanks for being a great friend and comrade and brother in arms, and holiday partner and so many other things that I cannot list completely. It has truly been an honor to have you as a friend and my life would never be the same without you. Thank you, for all the excellent times spent in many places, Singapore, Japan...the first week of holiday we both spent touring Japan was full of laughter and fun. En Taro Adun General! May our friendship stretch long and forever.
Tohby and LEE, Generals too, thank you for being awesome friends and cool people, and for always supporting mi in many ways. You guys, along with Ben, have been my best companions and the moments of laughter and brotherhood I have enjoyed immensely, and there will be many more to come. Cheers, Generals.

To my best friends from NYJC, JB Woo, Shi Chie, Zheng Yuan, Math Blaster and Jackie Gober-lin, thanks for being good friends and for the outings we had, though they weren't alot but I enjoyed them very much as well as your companionship...thanks alot you guys, stay in contact!

The legendary YK Tan, thank you for being an excellent informant and chat buddy. We should meet up some time to catch up, food outing again or so! Thank you, to Qinqin, for your always concern and for asking about mi from time to time. Thank you to Jacqueline and Yang Zi, for also being good friends who always care...hopefully we get to meet up more often this year. To Hui Yuan, thank you for occassionally asking how I am, and always caring and being there though we haven't seen each other for a long time...we should change that some time. To Wang You, who as up till now, I have only seemed to talk with you on MSN or Skype. But thanks for all the funny and serious talks...let's meet up some time while you're still in Singapore.

To everyone else I have not mentioned in name, I am deeply sorry. But I have not forgotten any of you and all of you have made my life shine in many big or little ways...thank you to all of you as well.
Some things, some people, I should not outwardly mention here...but please know that, silently in my heart, I thank you over and over again, and my gratitude flows to you as an endless river of thanks.

Truly, every year, every month, week, day, hour, is special in its own right, if only because once it passes, it will never, ever come again. I treasure every moment and meeting, and 2010 has truly been one of miracles for mi, special even amongst the others, in many ways, through many people who I cannot thank enough.
I close the chapter to 2010 in my life's story, though I will frequently open to reread it again. I say once more, thank you so much, to all who have helped mi to write it. A life's story is never written by one person alone, but everyone's story entwines with another, and year after year they never truly end, and new stories are added to our own...but truly, the stories are all one.

2010-12-30T10:32:00.002+08:00

I want to learn some art. 几天前画出来的什么什么根本不像起初想出来的。I look at it and want to laugh but instead I think, 好怅惘呀。

最近，连弹钢琴也变得有点难受了。But I have no choice or I'll lose touch and that will be a greater loss...I think. Will not have much time left starting next week or so...school will start again. Though actually, I compare myself with many of my friends and decide I am not so busy actually. In fact I find that I am one of a more free students in my school. Interestingly, I seem to working harder for my japanese classes than my school work still. 人，脑和心都存在不同的地方。Hard life to live lol.

I am thinking if I should try to get summer study programme next year, it is a programme where some students from my university can spend a month at a overseas university over our summer holidays. There are only 2 universities available for summer study though but I feel like trying for one of them.

Problem is, I actually want to go for overseas holiday next year summer too. There is enough time because summer holidays is 3 months, and summer study programme is just a month but problem is the cost. Summer study will cost at least $5000 just for programme and that does not include my living expense in another country. A holiday will cost maybe $2000 depending on how good my planning is. I wonder if I'm really able to spend $7000 in space of 3 months time. I want to use my own money I earned myself but that will drain almost all my savings till now. And I hope to go for exchange programme in my year 3 of university too...which will cost more. Trying to make the most out of university life is a little expensive I guess.

去了邮局几趟，连现在也没很多钱。我还记得以前我说过，我讨厌钱，现在反而有点矛盾。搞笑！“我讨厌钱。”只有我这种lame 人才能说出的话 lol.

2010-12-03T23:53:00.002+08:00

This blog falls gradually into disuse. I don't want that to happen so I'll try to post short ones from time to time. Actually I want to write a longer post, but I'm rather tired now so I won't...maybe I will another day, later next week, if I don't have to return to school. The past few days I was almost in school all day.

My exams are over and they were totally bogus. But no matter, they're over and I think I gave them quite alot, so no regrets there. Now most of my time is taken up with club activities, planning, and the preparation of Magical Christmas. Which leads mi to an appeal.

Would anyone like to donate blood? It's almost painless, really...a small gesture of kindness...you never know, it can save someone's life down the road, give someone in pain a chance to smile again.
If anyone's interested, do come down to Scape at Orchard the next weekend, SMU red cross has public blood donation drive there. It's just takes maybe half hour, very fast. We give you milo and biscuits too.

I was reading an old chinese book I have and feel I go through it rather slowly now...I think I'm losing my ability to read and write in chinese. All school work, studies, exams and everything are in english, newspapers in my house are in english and everything is english in singapore so I neglect the chance to read and write chinese. For speaking chinese, though, I don't have much problem because I have many friends who talk to mi in both chinese and english. It's just reading and writing. There is no opportunity to talk japanese at all and my classmates don't seem to like practising it with mi. I am restricted to talking to my stuffed toy for japanese. Does it sound stupid? I just want to keep reminding myself how the language sounds like so I can keep up with it, not lose the things I've learned after I started learning again.

I need to spend some uninterrupted time on the piano. I want to do something, and I promise myself nothing's stop mi once I start. It's the first time though, hope I do it well.

2010-11-27T00:18:00.001+08:00

这世界不可能有位更大的蠢人。

2010-11-06T23:14:00.002+08:00

Think it's quite much time I updated here. Not much has changed since the last post though.

Now I just need to get this question out of my mind. I know everyone knows of the people who sell tissue paper outside the MRT station. And of the buskers (most people will call them beggars...I refuse to do so) who play music at the roadside. And of the people who walk around food courts, place a card saying "Hi! I'm blind/deaf would you like to buy a small item from mi?"...so I want to know, is there anything shameful about buying from them or donating to them? Say you're walking with someone or eating with someone in food court, and that person buys a small keychain or pack of tissue from these people...do you feel embarassed to be with such a person?

I'm not arrowing at anyone when I say this because everyone is entitled to their own opinion. But it just...disappoints mi a little when I think of it.

I'm very tired after looking for many things all day and I cannot think straight now, although I feel there's more I want to say about that, but it will start to sound offensive and I don't want to. Or maybe I should...but like I said there probably isn't right or wrong about this and everyone has their own opinions on it.

Finals are coming in around 2-3 weeks. I don't feel stressed at all. In fact school seems to stress mi very little...I do what I have to do and it does take up alot of my time sometimes and I wish I had more time, but I don't particularly feel stress or worry from school. Maybe I have my priorities wrong. Maybe I care for something else far too much. Something's been happening to mi over a past few weeks and occasionally I just feel like the reason I've been fighting all this while is just getting harder to believe in. It's nothing to do with school. Gosh I'm not being emo I don't want to sound like that...tomorrow will be better =) lol I should shut up.

At least on the bright side, if exams are coming, it also means they are ending! Okay not so soon I know but all bad things end sometime as well yes? I am still clueless on statistics after chapter 4. For information, my exam covers until chapter 8, so I'm not even halfway through. Splendidd yeah? I have a graded letter assignment this week and I'm so going to write nonsense in it lol. Everyone around mi is crazy studying now and seeming like crawling through burning desert looking for water after school. Sometimes it's funny! And by the way I found good and cheap chicken rice shop at dhoby xchange! I can foresee myself going there alot lol...it's en route to each a cup at plaza singapura too (each a cup = hazelnut bubble tea). We find small things like this to cheer us up! =)

Tomorrow shall be my stats day! I shall attempt (and fail like the last 4 or 5 times I tried) to teach myself chapter 5 of stats. Good luck to mi! If I succeed, I shall buy hazelnut milk tea on monday after japanese class for reward myself. If I fail, I shall buy hazelnut milk tea on monday after japanese class to remind myself that true success lies in the process and not the outcome.

See? Life IS good!

2010-10-26T10:15:00.002+08:00

I had a great time on sunday! Thank you so much to everyone from ivory keys Joanna, Pearlyn, Junzhi, Sharon, Charlotte and Lydia for coming! It was a small party but very enjoyable still =) Happy birthday to you too Joanna! A day late here though, sorry.

Midterms is over and I had a break...for maybe a few hours? Then I had to go back and do project things and assignments again. Well the good thing is I managed to pass everything...for now...not excellently well but I thought I would fail math. Quite happy that I made it...don't know if I can do that again for finals but I'll try. I'm still not registering anything during lecture though. I just sit there for 3 hours and 0_0 I don't like to open my labtop so much during lecture, but almost everyone else seems to be using face book or playing games throughout. I guess everyone is also teaching themselves 100% of statistics.

Japanese class has started for a few lessons and it is very fun though, it is the only lessons I really look forward to. In fact, I pay closer attention to that than my school lectures lol...and put more effort into it also. I wish I had some other people to practise Japanese with than myself though. Everyone else in class is like "don't be so ON lah" when I ask them if I can try speaking to them in Japanese to practise. So I must resort to coming home at night and asking myself questions in english and translating it into Japanese. It probably looks silly but I somehow find it enjoyable lol. Having trouble trying to remember all the new vocabulary words though.

K this isn't a very long post, but I don't feel like writing more right now. My life's going to be kind of routine for a next few weeks till holidays, or at least after finals...they're like in a month die fail. Someone please teach mi statistics, I will teach you matrices and vectors and simple Japanese in return.

2010-10-10T17:42:00.002+08:00

I haven't posted for a very long time, I'm sorry. Been caught up with quite alot of stuff...which I don't really like. I didn't indeed imagine my university life to be like this...it's a little harder to accept than I thought it would be. I want to be optimistic, but sometimes, I just find myself wondering what I am doing.

My sole motivation for studying is to get a seat for exchange program as soon as possible. I don't know what my chances are, I don't know when it can be...but I'll do my best and hope it is enough. However, more and more this days, I find that I am having to force myself to study, and do my assignments...yeah I know this isn't what I want to study in first place, but I had already taken the fact into consideration and thought economics is a good thing to use wherever I am in the world. But, when I think a little bit more, I realise than I am studying along with people who are doing their life's dream, people who have been wanting to do economics since long times ago, and are now pursuing what they are truly interested in and want to do in life. And in a university like mine, where grades are competitive...it somehow makes this task a little daunting.

But that doesn't mean I give up of course...even though my notes and math speak to mi in alien language...I try my best to get by.

On happier thoughts, japanese class is starting soon, right after my midterms. Although it means more time spent working, I'm looking forward to it greatly, I really wish to learn better a language I feel as beautiful as chinese. Language can express so many things in so many ways, and some languages can say things in such beautiful, touching ways...I wish I will be able to do that in more than one language some day. When you are faraway and apart from someone you miss, it may be hard sometimes to let that person know your feelings, so you express in words, as best as you can. Although we miss each other's presence, we can bring our feelings through in beautiful words and we find that, maybe...we are not that far away after all.

For now, I put my energy into my study, so I can achieve my goal. Or actually most of that energy is put into forcing myself to stay focused. But whatever it takes I will try, because this opportunity is important to mi. And if I cannot achieve it once, I will try again next time until I get it. That is my promise to myself.

2010-09-22T00:14:00.002+08:00

I will be switching over to an FC2 blog soon. I will still be using and posting in this one, but the FC2 blog will be my main...when I have more time to figure out more of the features.

An interesting conversation happened at school. It was said in chinese, but I will write it in english here.
Wenrong (mi): I stay in changi, near to pasir ris.
Xin Yao (friend, group project): Really? I stay in pasir ris too! Cool! Does your house have water? Drinking water, to drink,
Wenrong: Yes, there is water. I have fruit juice too, my house always has juice.
Xin Yao: That's great. Does your house have a toilet?
Wenrong: ......yes, my house has a toilet. It has three.
Xin Yao: That's great too. What about tables and chairs? You will have alot of work to do.
Wenrong: No, my house has no table and chair. You know, my house has no FLOOR. If you come in, you will fall into under ground.
Xin Yao: That's bad! But my house, has no walls! You can just walk in any time.
Wenrong: Cool! My house has walls, but no door! You cannot even come in!
This went on for awhile, with Anna and Samantha laughing madly beside us. I'm glad I still have the ability to joke despite recent events.

I'm not sad or anything, just a little lost. Maybe I'm being too paranoid also, but I just suddenly feel that I lost something that I held most dearly, and it is my fault that I did not do enough. Everyone has that feeling some time, I guess.

I suddenly feel very tired. I still have 3 assignments, a location to find, a beneficiary to umm "benefit", a TREE to make, interview to prepare for, presentation to prepare for, and soon exam. I have so little time to devote to things I really want to do, but not for myself, for others, and especially for someone who I miss terribly much. It will take time, but, I will do it in the end.

I found other japanese school that I can start learning japanese (again) at. Glad I found someone to go with mi to learn, we can practise together! =) This will take more of my time of course, but for this, I willingly devote.

Staying alive~

2010-09-19T01:02:00.003+08:00

very simple meal of vegetables and fish and rice. one of my lunches.

another very simple meal of prawns omelette egg, and fish soup, with rice. Think I made a bit too much soup then.

2010-09-10T23:04:00.003+08:00

Today is Hari Raya....Selamat Hari Raya Aidil Fitri to all my malay friends! Mempunyai masa menyenangkan!

I made a new blog, somewhere else. Want to be able to design it nicely, though I kind of doubt I will be able to figure it out. I will still be using this blog here, though.

I did not want to post because I didn't want to phase out the 2 posts underneath, but that will kind of remove the purpose of having a blog. So I keep the memory in special place in my heart, and move on.

Life in smu will only get busier. I do not think I can say too much about it here or I will get arrested. But I think, I have not yet gotten used to the culture and life here in this school....or maybe I'm just trying to think of too many things at once. Or actually, only a few things...but I think about them alot. This is one thing about mi....maybe I think too much. Sometimes hope is the first step on the road to disappointment. Ah see! I am thinking too much again. But I've been thinking alot lately.

Work is generally allright, although I almost cannot figure out probability at all. I don't love math alot, did not expect this course I am in to be SO MUCH math. My exams are almost coming already, which is quite scary fast. I don't usually get what my professors are saying sometimes, so I have to resort to teaching myself alot of things, and self studying. But I understand better and faster when I learn things myself that way so I guess it's not a bad thing. It's funny because if that is the situation...why am I paying school fees?

Going to help out with Ivory Keys (piano club in my school) concert tomorrow. Hopefully next year, I will be one of the performers. It will be nice if I can perform some song from studio ghibli and final fantasy, and maybe a duet. I like listening to duets, would be great if I can play them too. Speaking of clubs in my school, I joined a lot of them. I will stay there as long I can manage my time.

I feel quite lousy now. It's nothing to do with being sick though. But, tomorrow will be better! Always.

2010-08-14T21:28:00.003+08:00

I have finally finished all my smu matriculation stuff.....I think. The deadlines were all over the place, so it was rather messy. At least, I think I finished....if I missed something out, I die, fail.

I am having bad "calpis drink and japanese curry rice" withdrawal symptom. Miss japanese food alot. These few days after I'm back whenever I walk past japanese food stall in singapore food court, I look at the bento and feel weird. Of course it is not just the food though.

It's hard to simply say how special this holiday was to mi. Japan itself is a wonderful country, but what truly made the holiday so memorable was the bonds I made. To Miki, Shun, Kohei and Shota, and other japanese friends like Tomomichi and Yuma who I regret not talking much with, but I know you are all good friends =) I think it is iconic of how the people you meet and spend time with can change the way you experience something....or even the way you feel about life.

We met for only a bit more than 1 week, and it was quite a short time. But I think, that you do not need to know someone for very long before you know that they are someone special.

Life can give you happiness in unexpected, but simple and beautiful ways. Time is one of the most precious gifts of all, and I am so fortunate I was gifted with the time spent in japan with you. Everything we have in life is a gift, and this is one of the most wonderful I have ever received. Thank you so much =)

time....and love

2010-08-11T22:43:00.003+08:00

I have just returned from japan. It has been definitely the best holiday of my life, I did not want to come back at all.

Japan is a wonderful, amazing country that will never cease to impress mi. I am not going to list my entire itinerary here (did I spell that word correctly), but it is enough to say that I had extremely good time there. The food I ate, the scenery I saw and the things I did were each unique and enjoyable in their own way.

And most importantly of all, the people I met and got to know there make the trip so happy and meaningful to mi. I will never forget the times we spent together in tokyo, eating, talking and laughing together. I had so much fun with you.....I wish we could go on like this forever. Thank you so much Miki, Shun, Kohei, Shota and all others for letting us have such a memorable time in Japan. I am so happy and so sad at the same time now. Happy to know all of you, and sad that we must part so quickly. I will miss you so much.

No matter how far away we may seem to be from each other, love and friendship is our net that draws us all together, and such a net cannot be broken. I hope with all my heart that we can meet each other again in the not too distant future. Until we see each other again, take care in whatever you do! I will forever remember this holiday and the laughter we shared =)

T.T

2010-07-24T22:49:00.002+08:00

Am leaving for japan quite soon, on 27th july. But first, arts camp @ smu! Hope it's enjoyable.

Have just finished smu red cross journey camp. It was fantastic! Not so much the community service component, but the people I met.....these kind of camps is definitely about the people, and I've the good fortune to meet excellent people at both. I will not compare the 2 camps I have been to, both have been extremely fun and I have met incredible people. I have not known so many great people in my life. Okay maybe I have....but still, I feel I forged some bonds there I wish with all my heart to keep strong.

I am sorry to you all that my japan trip seems to botch all the good dates nearby where we can meet up and go out, will join you all when I come back okay? If there is any singing, please reserve till when I can go!

2010-07-16T22:38:00.003+08:00

Going for smu red cross camp soon....hope it's enjoyable. At least I'm doing some community service, which I like alot. I don't really care much, if at all about smu's quota for 80 hours community service or whatnot, I just enjoy doing it.

It's kind of.....sad, when a person you thought you were rather good friends with, after quite a long time, still refers to you in front of his or her parents as "my friend's friend". To mi, in a way, a friend is a friend, even if we just say hello and smile at each other as we walk past....not just someone who I know because he knows someone else I know. Does that make sense?

I have severe acne problems now. I'm getting stressed out, before school even starts....and apparently smu is one real place to get stressed out. I am going to kill myself there. Ok lah maybe not so bad.....got alot of ccas in mind. Wonder if I'm going to have the time for all of them. Want to join like five? That's definitely over kill.

Oh and Hui Yuan nice to see you today! Haha XD

2010-07-10T21:27:00.002+08:00

I have not blogged in a really long time and I'm sorry to those who do come read, primarily Yan Ru and Hui Yuan =( just didn't feel like saying much although at times there were things worth mentioning.

Came back from Shanghai a few weeks back, didn't particularly enjoy the trip although the world expo was pretty good. Singapore's a rather popular country! 2 hour or so queue to enter our province exhibit. Did want to see Japan's, but it was a like 4 hour queue? And we only had a day.

More importantly, I just finished freshman teambuilding camp for smu. It's an orientation camp at outward bound school. I don't think I can describe the camp here, but it was really fun! My group was really close knit and I think this is the best camp I ever been to. Splendidd people and activities. Could do with a little less decorative food though, for people who get my drift. Planning to sign up for red cross camp and probably arts camp as well. Is 3 orientation camps overdoing it? I can't go for my own school's.

Leaving for Japan in a few weeks, not really prepared and not much time left to prepare. Got some stuff to do for school too, apply study loan, upload stuff and what not. So irritating must go for compulsory talks. Do nus and ntu have this?

Meanwhile, scoring a new, nicer version of this song called Melodies of Life on the piano. Really beautiful melody. If anyone's got time, go search vivo per lei by Andrea Bocelli and Hayley Westenra on youtube....it's a duet accompanied by an ice skating performance....very beautiful show.

2010-05-30T21:04:00.002+08:00

Done with relief teaching. Quite happy to be done, wasn't a really easy job.

Confirmed as going to smu. Is that a good thing? I hope so. It isn't my foremost choice. I want to be happy there.

I am being hit by a recent rush of bad luck. I knock over and drop things lamely a real lot and many things just don't seem to be turning out well for mi. Mosquitoes are bugging mi again. I can't sleep properly. Wonder what's going on.

Now I hope to find a small time job that'll still leave mi time for camps and activities and such....I accepted smu on the acceptance site, but I don't really know what to do next. They give mi no information at all. Unlike NUS that's sent mi orientation packages and letters and emails. So what am I supposed to think? =( worst case scenario is if I'm supposed to do something in line of acceptance that I don't know about, and I missed the chance and I now have no university. I cannot be that unlucky right?

Whatever happens, I am strong!

2010-05-19T13:44:00.002+08:00

I am finally finishing my relief teaching job. Will be leaving as the June holidays start. June holidays start in.....well June, so I will be stopping teaching end of May. The bad thing is I'll be unemployed for awhile, hopefully temporarily, but at least I get one less source of stress.

Life has mucky roads and I'm going through a rather sticky one now. I was never one to complain alot, but crap happens. Sometimes, if things are going well, it doesn't mean everything's going to be all right in the end.

Am looking very forward to my holiday in July to Japan. Will be great to slack around with the good General. I actually do hope to eat good stuff, but the problem with "good stuff" in Japan is the price. Saving on food means I can buy more interesting stuff I wouldn't find in Singapore, and with the endlessly imaginative and creative minds of the Japanese, I think that's a better bet.

2010-05-04T23:01:00.002+08:00

I haven't posted for a very long time, I'm sorry.

Am very much torn between NUS and SMU. FASS and economics respectively. There are very strong factors drawing mi to both sides. I don't want to say what I think about either school here cos I don't want it to bother mi for now. Losing sleep, becoming paranoid, and generally less friendly. This is a stupid thing to be affecting mi. But I think I will have to go to SMU in the end. I do not think I will be happy there.

Went to sing songs with the teachers over the labor day holiday. It was enjoyable, but quite hard on the voice. Leonard why must you pick all the highest songs.

Am going to Japan with the good general late july to august. Likely leaving on the 26th of july. Will be a good break from all my mental chaos. Please let something good happen.

2010-04-10T23:40:00.003+08:00

Watched Dunman High's chinese concert. Thank you Virginia for inviting us to it, it was very good! The place was a little cramped, but the acting was good =)

I haven't much to say. Just thought it's been a long time since I last posted. There's a mosquito bugging mi right now.

Am short of things to do to pass this weekend. I don't really feel like playing piano for now....no inspirations.

2010-03-30T13:12:00.002+08:00

Am getting quite a bit of stress at school. Not really because of my students, but because of what I have to do. Again, I don't think I should say so much here.

Am now listening to JJ Lin's ai yu xi wang quite a few times over. Scoring it now, and transcribing it down to F major. That passes most of my time, along with school stuff and reading my book from Taiwan.

I notice that the books I bought from Taiwan have a very different writing style from those I typically read, by Western or even Singaporean authors. The language and form of writing used is much different from other books I have read....a little more harsh and direct, but also somehow more....intense. Not that there's anything bad about it, but I'm a little unused to the way they write things. Nothing's bad about the stories though, they're good.

Finally can do something I wanted to for some time.

2010-03-21T22:51:00.004+08:00

School starts again tomorrow, and my holiday's over. It was a good break though and I had a good time with the other teacher friends. It could have ended much better, but I've never been a very lucky person.

I've applied to all the universities and am randomly applying for some scholarships. I doubt I'll get any, but I'll just go for it. No reason not to, no loss. Hope nus and smu take mi. I'd probably prefer them to ntu. But I do want to try staying in a hall, for awhile.

Please let time pass a little faster.....selfish of mi to say, I'm sorry.

2010-03-19T00:37:00.002+08:00

It's been a long time since I last posted again, I'm sorry.

Holidays are ending and I've got to go back to school soon. Different meaning from what it used to mean last time. Not exactly looking forward, but what must be done must be done.

Went out with the other relief teachers over the holidays. I really hope we can keep in contact after we finish up at Bedok Green. You all are a really nice group to be with =) I can help you finish your meals!

Spending time making worksheets and online learning packages now. It's quite stressful cos there're deadlines to meet for this. Hopefully I don't get too many classes when I go back to school.

Settled nus and ntu applications. Hope they get approved. Going to do smu's soon.

2010-03-09T22:37:00.002+08:00

I will have to get my university applications in order soon, if not tomorrow. Hopefully I can get at least one done tomorrow....nus's is quite easy to do. Smu's requires a whole lot of stuff to write.....ntu's is somewhere in between. Not sure where I'd apply in ntu though. Most likely nus I'll be applying into fass.....and smu into econs. Ntu unconfirmed as of now. I am somewhat.....tired of thinking sciences already.

I'm also thinking of applying for a scholarship. My grades aren't really shining, but where this is concerned it can't hurt to try. For university application it's really do or die cos this is my last chance and smu isn't making it easier for mi. If I don't make it this time, I am headed into ntu chemical engineering.

Have managed to score the main melody of xiao jiu wo by JJ Lin and am adding some embellishments. Would anyone like to hear it? I think it'll be nice when I finish, along with my 1000 words.

2010-03-05T22:17:00.002+08:00

Today is.....was....A Level results day, and though I didn't go back to smell the ashes, I do hope everyone did well for it. Congratulations to all! =)

Now, I must seriously make a decision regarding university re-application. I think I've more or less made up my mind. Better do it soon before I forget. Still so unsure about so many things. Although somehow I think in the long run, it won't really matter all that much.

I will not talk about my relief teaching job here. It's just coming on allright, I guess.

Haven't got anything to say, really....just felt like typing something!

2010-03-01T21:27:00.002+08:00

It's been a long time since I last posted....I'm sorry. My new year weekend and holiday was fine, ended wonderfully.

Am now relief teaching at Bedok Green Secondary. It isn't an easy job at all.....I don't think I should say too much here. I don't know if I can stay after the teacher I'm relieving returns from medical leave, but I will most likely leave and go over to my aunt's school. I don't think Bedok Green will need mi there anymore, anyway.

Have scored 1000 words from Final Fantasy X2, as well as written a short, very simple tune....I played it on the harmonica on the last day of my NS in camp, under the name "Morning of farewell". Have now adapted it to piano with accompaniment and some minor embellishments.

Am now probably going to apply into econs courses in university. I should have done this years ago. This is what I get for setting your university course target in sec 3. We must have foresight, but we probably shouldn't get ahead of ourselves like that.

I really.....want to do something soon.

2010-02-13T23:23:00.003+08:00

Happy chinese new year! There was a rather entertaining Jackie Chan show airing just now. Don't know what it's called in english. It's funny.

Spent the whole day cleaning the house. It was rather interesting discovering things that just lie around waiting to be thrown away. Mysteriously, they always reappear every chinese new year eve.

Got a place at Bedok Green Secondary to teach english. I suppose it isn't absolutely confirmed as I'm not officially accepted as a relief teacher yet, but the very nice english HOD said they had a slot open for mi so I take that positively. Looking forward to start =) notsure how I'm going to teach english though. Better start thinking of some interesing ideas. Also hope to get the job from Red Focus to be a learning journey facilitator. Said they'd get back to mi via email to tell mi the date for an interview. Thanks Eunice for introducing it to mi! It does sound fun.

Hopefully we can have a small gathering at Mingfa's place next week over the cny period. It would be nice to see everyone again. Of course it hasn't been that long, but I do miss BRC already. I miss talking about the future and physics with Arthur and Kwok Hoe, and rubbishing around with Edmund and Sunny and Yeow Hwee. And of course, Mingfa, IT'S ALL A DAMN SET UP. I QUIT!

Looking forward to eat nut cookies.

2010-02-10T21:51:00.002+08:00

The NS chapter of my life draws to a close. While the writing of it was arduous and trying at many instances, I am extremely glad that it was ever included in my life's story, and if I had to rewrite that story, I would certainly include this chapter all over again.

My sincerest thanks to all the excellent people who were included in this story. The bonds we forged as we crossed rivers seas and mountains and dark scary jungles, and ploughed through dungeons and monsters and freaky weather and all sorts of other awful things....I shall never forget. Friendship is forever!

2010-02-06T23:03:00.002+08:00

Spending my time listening to music from Final Fantasy 8 and 10. 10's nicer I think. The game Grandia 3 has nice music as well. I'm not weird for paying attention to the music rather than playing the games themselves, am I?

Now that my NS is ending somewhat soon, I can't help but think I'll quite miss it when it's over. I'm certainly not one of the crazily hanging on my ORD date kind of person, and I honestly do enjoy time spent in camp sometimes. Chatting with friends, doing stuff, relaxing and reading over free time. Truth be told, I sometimes like being there more than at home, with nothing to do and no one to talk to. Of course my piano's at home, but I can bring my harmonica to camp, and it works out just fine too.

Please go listen to the orchestral version of the song Fragments of Memories from Final Fantasy 8. It's a wonderful piece of music. As is the song Love Grows, also its orchestral version, also Final Fantasy 8.

2010-02-01T22:07:00.003+08:00

Forgot to post yesterday, I know I usually do on sundays.

Played Airsoft with the good General, LEEder, tohby, friend from Japan and some of General's friends. Very enjoyable, but rather hot weather. Wouldn't mind doing that again sometimes....with a little better odds hopefully. Would also be nice if they put a canvas sheet or netting to shade the action area from the sun.

I've taken to listening to almost all the Final Fantasy 10 soundtracks, alot of them are very nice. Final Fantasy 8 seems to have a good storyline too, 7's seems a little....jumbled and I don't like Cloud. He makes mi feel sorry for Tifa. But 8's Squall and Rinoa have almost as good a story (and romance!) as 10's Tidus and Yuna. 8 has nice music too.

And The Gift by Cecelia Ahern is a wonderful book. I haven't finished it but I'm already saying it's a very nice book. Better than Thanks for the Memories, so far. Good stories are hard to come by!

2010-01-24T22:03:00.002+08:00

I'm very taken in by the world of Final Fantasy X (roman numeral 10, for the uninitiated). I've never played the game and doubt I will, but I think it's a very, very good piece of work. The music in it is beautiful, the relationship between the characters are so well developed and the storyline is deep and touching. I can't say much about the game play of course cos I haven't played it but the reviews were good so I guess there aren't any problems there. Spent quite alot of time watching all the cutscenes on youtube. Sad but hopeful ending to the whole story which set the pace for FFX-2, where a much happier ending brought the whole story full circle to a beautiful close. Tidus and Yuna truly share a touching relationship. These kind of things always end perfectly in games, movies and books. But of course, that's why games, movies and books sell. But still, the story of Final Fantasy X is indeed deeply stirring.

I suppose I incline easily to these kind of storylines. Which explains why I liked the His Dark Materials trilogy so much. Another happy yet heartbreaking ending. And the Time Traveler's Wife as well.

I should like to get to know another good story soon. It's easy to lose yourself in the stories you read as you try to see the world through the eyes of the characters in the plot. Almost always, of course, in stories things are too perfect to be true. But that's why they're nice.

2010-01-17T20:24:00.002+08:00

I've got a very bad sore throat now and a fever and a cough and I'm sneezing and feel very cold all the time. Hope my masses of apples and water and orange juice today will have helped.

Met up with some S02 people yesterday and it was fun =) nice to see you're all doing allright. Next time we go sing songs and build a tent.

I have successfully scored the interval part of hui you na me yi tian, and am proceeding on to complete the song, as well as scoring yiruma's love mi. It's a beautiful melody. So is kiss the rain, please go to you tube and look them up. If I could see you again is another one I like. It's so much the wistful yet happily recalling memories kind of song.

AHS's piano is in better condition than I expected. Played it when I arrived early yesterday while waiting for S02. It's on permament muffle except for the high E. It's weird when I play a song and the high E keeps distinctly accenting itself. But it's in a pretty good condition for a public instrument.

2010-01-15T22:59:00.002+08:00

I think I'll post more often these days.

I've lost considerable touch with the piano. Haven't been playing, and even when I have I'm not exactly there.

Recently realised I have nothing, for the most part, to do over weekends. I wake up, try to entertain myself around the house with the piano or xbox or even doing physics or just go out to some place to make it seem like I'm busy. Maybe soon when I enter university I'll appreciate this abundance of time.

I think I'm getting a sore throat.

2010-01-12T14:02:00.002+08:00

Last month of NS is going to be busy. Alot of work suddenly appears to make it somewhat a bad parody of a final term exam. Arrows are shot left and right. Wenrong, handle the off records! Wenrong, duty for you! Wenrong, mega prosperity burger with curly fries and upsize coke light! Wenrong....................do everything.....!

Of course it isn't just mi, everyone's having a very messy time as well. We roll with the punches.

I wish I could do magic. Come on, who doesn't. But specifically, I wish I could time travel. The last book I read must be taking a serious toll on mi.

All the best to Wang You for your trip to Adelaide, may you land safely and enjoy yourself there! Take care, keep in touch =)

2010-01-11T22:14:00.002+08:00

I've finished reading the Time Traveler's Wife....it's an unusual book, a little confusing and slightly draggy at times. It is also an extraordinarily beautiful story full of unconditional love, commitment, trust and devotion.....it was so sad at the end, though it wasn't as touching an ending as the Amber Spyglass....that was still the most emotional scene ever. But when I read the final chapter of the Time Traveler's Wife, it made mi think alot about what it would be like to be that way....that they were. But it was a very, very touching end to the story.

I am posting again today....nothing much to do. I've been listening to I See You, the Avatar's soundtrack over and over. It doesn't have all that much tune, but it seems a very beautiful song.

2010-01-11T16:29:00.002+08:00

Just returned from anglican high, went there to smell the ashes of results day. I suppose the general mood was fine. Congratulations to all who did well, and a great job to all those who did better =) good job to all my CCA juniors as well especially POW, rachel, joshua and amanda =)

I am tearing myself into pieces worrying over something now. Oftentimes my worries are always unfounded, but I can't help it. I don't believe this. I always thought I wasn't the worrying sort. Maybe that aspect of mi only concerned my studies. Please let everything be allright.

It's a month to ORD and I feel nothing. I'm not the crazily can't wait to ORD sort so everyone please stop waving your hands at mi and yelling out those letters. What will come will come, and I take things slowly. I appreciate your jubilation but for what reason I don't know, I don't exactly share it.

I have not touched my piano for a long time. I love playing it so to mi, a week and a half is a very long time. My music sounds very detached from mi when I've got alot on my mind. Playing the piano was always my way of destressing myself and now even this ability has left mi. But now just please let my score for hui you na me yi tian be done soon.

2010-01-03T13:04:00.003+08:00

Happy new year =) I am late I know was busy the last 2 days.

2009 was a very good year. Regardless of the rubbish I had to go through for various reasons, I am still very glad it passed the way it did, and I am especially grateful to God and the 2 people who made that possible. They are the only 2 people I enjoy talking to about army things, outside of army.

I'm not so much into making new year resolutions, and I don't know what I'd want to do anyway. Not that I'm trying to say I'm perfect, I just don't know. Maybe they're too many things I want to do, but don't know how to go about doing them.

I want to try to play Mozart's Sonata in D major for 2 pianos. It seems fun and a nice piece, really.

2009-12-27T21:58:00.002+08:00

Had a fair christmas, really....class barbeque with 0616 people, and CSCYugi finally turned up for a class gathering. Thank you for the watch, Crappy Boo....hope PK liked the notebook. Rather simple compared to all the rather extravagant stuff the others brought for gift exchange....sorry.

Got quite a busy month of January so nobody tell mi I am going to finish NS soon please. I don't mind the work, but I take things at my own pace. Thanks for the encouragement though.

POW is acting weird. Weirder than normal, that is.

Really nothing much to say. Am rather out of touch with my piano skills now after coming back from Taiwan.

2009-12-21T12:03:00.003+08:00

Christmas is coming....can't exactly do something I hoped to though. Nevermind, we can't have everything in life. A certainly good alternative did come out of it though.

2009 draws to a slow close. It was, despite all the challenges, a very good year.

Just came back from Taiwan holiday too. Did not enjoy it much really. Was thinking of too many things at home. Flight back was rather horrific.

What to do!!! We do our best to hope haha.

2009-12-11T21:02:00.002+08:00

I have realised at the good General's house that the stupid adverts on my tagboard don't seem to show up on others' computers. So they're just advertising to the owner, mi. Please ignore the many "away"s that I have typed.

I will be overseas for a week starting tomorrow morning. Take care everyone back here. I am not overly excited....I don't know, but somehow I'm not extremely keen on going. But we appreciate things as they come.

I am thinking and worrying too much again. Please let mi not make the same mistake as I did before.

Scored the chords for the whole of Heal the World now, it's just a matter of getting the accompaniment sounding right. I can't seem to get the "feel".

2009-12-06T20:49:00.002+08:00

Just completed standard chartered marathon earlier today, and it was fairly enjoyable. I didn't know there were sooo many people into running.

But what made mi a little sad was the work all those volunteers had to do....it was tough! Especially those taking care of the water points....seeing the way people throw the cups, banana peels and gel packets all over the place is horrendous. I try my best to always throw my cup into the designated rubbish spots, but seeing litter on this scale is quite shocking. Thank you to the volunteers for helping out....saw you there Zhuang Shu! Thank you for passing mi the 100 plus!

Nothing much to say apart from the weekend going pretty well, I can finally do something I really want to do for a very long time.

2009-11-29T22:31:00.002+08:00

Met the good General over the weekend, had quite a fun time at Dhoby.

Went to Sitex over the weekend too, and it was fairly...lacklustre. I think I saw some better deals at Courts, and some better deals still at Sim Lim. I suppose you can't get too sure with IT fairs that they'll definitely give you better offers there than outside then. Or maybe I got a little too....hopeful. Not that I was really looking for anything, but still the prices are a little disappointing.

Am now trying also to score Michael Jackson's Heal the World, and somehow I give myself the impression I'm trying to do too many things at once. I just seem to flow into other songs when I play a song on the piano, and from there I'll get an idea for yet another song. Well, it passes time.

It still isn't December.

I really, really hope I can do something I really want to soon.

2009-11-22T20:13:00.002+08:00

Dick Lee is a genius with music and words. He is a genius lyricist. Please go to youtube and search some of his songs and watch him go.

There is a high probability I will have to shift my driving test, again. I have spent enough munny on this. By whatever means, I will go for the next one. If I can take my current test in january, so much the better.

I successfully completed a 32km run. Nice build up for standard chartered. Am not extremely looking forward to it somehow....but I'll try my best.

I still cannot get my printer to work. Die, fail!

I always think and worry alot, but when you've got free time and can't use it, it gives you plenty more time to think and worry. Somehow I think that's what I do best.

A few things I really would look forward to, if time'd pass a little faster till december. But that'd be a selfish wish =X

2009-11-15T20:03:00.003+08:00

My computer's got a virus, AGAIN. It is doing very irritating and ridiculous things with my account on facebook. Yucks! I may have to format my drive again soon.

I transposed the whole of guang liang's dou shi ni to make it easier for mi to sing. Shi nian is now out of the question, I realised some parts are too high. I'm now in the midst of transposing and scoring JJ Lin's hui you na me yi tian as well. And soon, I want to start on flying without wings. It's a beautiful song, but I probably want to transpose that as well, up a tone or so.

Spending lots of time on my piano when I'm free, or with my punching bag, or training slowly for standard chartered marathon. It's probably not going to be a very easy 42km, I was never a real great endurance runner. Still, I plan to finish it strong!

I want to buy a labtop! Or is it spelt laptop? K I want to buy a foldable mobile computer. Doesn't have to be a $3000 powerhouse, just a fairly simple one will do.

2009-11-08T20:31:00.002+08:00

I remember that I had alot of things I wanted to say....but now I can't remember what all of them are.

My printer cannot detect the ink I put inside it. I refilled it and shook the ink cartridges, there's ink in there. But when I try to print bu dong's music score by JJ Lin, it says both ink levels are extremely low. I may have to resort to manually copying out all 7 pages of that score. Think you're right Eunice, it's allergic to music.

Everyone is having exams now, JC, university ok O levels are almost over but nevertheless, alot of people are all caught up in their work now. Good luck to all, have faith, stay strong, you'll all pull through. Everyone I know is an intelligent person, and I'm sure you'll all hit your targets, finish strong =)

Spent much of the day wandering around Bugis on my own. There is a certain peace in walking around, amongst the usual sunday crowd but still alone, looking through books at kinokuniya, where I spent most of my time, wandering up and down the streets, entering random shops. But of course, I still wish I had company.

Having alot of trouble sleeping lately.....I can lie awake in bed for over an hour. I wake up frequently during the night, lie awake some more, then fall asleep again. And I eventually wake up in the morning around 5am, and am unable to fall asleep again. So I continue turning left and right, and looking up at the ceiling till 6am plus till it's time to get up. That's in camp of course. At home, push forward all the timings by 3 hours or so.

Do I have alot on my mind, a good friend asks. Yeah I do, but I'm not the emo type. Fretting over things isn't really my style. If this persists, I will get sleeping pills. It won't do for mi to go around everyday sleepy, but ironically being unable to sleep at night.

Please let mi run fast tomorrow.

2009-11-01T20:10:00.002+08:00

Went to sing song at chevron's over the weekend, and now I feel like scoring shi nian as well, seems to match my voice too, and the piano accompaniment is beautiful. The words are nice too, and...I just like the song.

Nothing much to say about this weekend, except I will spend a whole 5 days in the wilderness this week. Well, I'm prepared, and I'm strong! =)

November's here, 3 more months or so to end of my NS. Whatever people usually say about NS, I will definitely miss it after it's over. But this is something to think about later in the year. As of now, the good LEEder introduced a very good job to mi. I shall pick it up soon, hopefully it will give mi time still to do relief teaching, and still keep my weekend nights relatively free.

2009-10-25T21:13:00.002+08:00

I had a great weekend =)

Thank you to Arthur, Edmund, Andrew, Mingfa, Raeger, Yeow Hwee and Kwok Hoe for the Batman, it was very enjoyable indeed! Quite pleasantly surprised, but thank you all the same =P

Thank you to Eunice for the shoe bag, and also for joining mi at Tampines 1 yesterday night, I had a really nice time :)) thanks so much!

Thank you to all for wishing mi as well, it's good to know so many people still remember mi haha.

2009-10-18T18:26:00.002+08:00

hopefully, I can take an off day this coming friday. feel like it haha.

hope there isn't much on this week, as with other weeks. met the gober-lin and crappy boo yesterday, they seem to be having alot of fun lately. manhattan fish market rocks all the way! and so does tau hua and red tea ice blend. I have suddenly taking a big liking to tau hua. it is healthy and a certain hawker center near lot 1 sells extremely good tau hua. it's so smooth it seems to melt in your mouth.

nothing much to say over this weekend. went well =)

2009-10-11T20:26:00.002+08:00

I am now suddenly interested in doing Economics at SMU. Or rather I am just suddenly interested in doing economics.....and before someone tells mi something bad about the course again, it's just a feeling....make nothing of it. I seem very diverse in my choice of courses in university to be interested in. With no exact correlation in between then as well....for now I am just hoping, mainly, I can get into NUS bioengineering.

You know those people who occasionally come by the table you are eating at in a food court or so, place a little trinket or charm beside your food with the words "hello! I am (a certain ailment), would you like to buy something to help?". Happened today, and I really really wanted to buy something from the deaf woman. Problem is it was right after driving lesson and that left mi with $4, and her red and white hanging accessory cost $6. Feel very sad for these kind of people.

I haven't done something I really like to do for a very long time. Hopefully the opportunity to comes soon.

Taken an interest to hiking and camping out. Wonder what it'd be like to walk through a scenic place, fresh air and all, pitch a tent at the end of the day, cook a hot meal, and then roll up in a sleeping bag under the stars. No, army has not made mi crazy. I always thought it would be nice to get out to see nature once in awhile. It'd definitely feel different from army jungle training, and most likely more enjoyable. Doubt I can find anyone with similar interests though.

Am a fair bit into scoring di yi ci by guang liang to sing and play the piano at the same time. I think that's a song more likely to fall into my voice's cadence.

2009-10-04T18:34:00.002+08:00

something is wrong with blogger again and it is terribly lag on my computer and the page is only half loaded...hopefully it won't stop mi from posting.

The good generals just came over this morning....Ben is getting very good at DoW.

This week's probably going to be packed with mosquitoes....nothing much to say about it. Hope it ends quickly and that'll make exactly 4 months to the end of it all.

Don't have much to say now either....the moon was blocked last night so couldn't see it, aww. Happy mid autumn festival to all....am not extremely into fancy mooncakes though some are nice. Happy children's day too....whatever our age, we must always grow up to be kids.

2009-09-27T20:58:00.002+08:00

many congratulations to arthur for managing to run 2.4km within 9min 45seconds, you can wear your gold badge proudly now!

hopefully, there isn't much on this week. Worried about some things, and thinking too much still. Playing piano and blowing harmonica to lighten up. I have decided that JJ Lin's voice is out of my own voice's octave so trying to sing his songs while playing piano isn't going to work out very well. So I shall try to switch over to Lee Sheng Jie or Wang Li Hong. Both of which I doubt I will be very successful.

Nothing much to say this week, it was normal and mundane and I hope most weeks remain this way. Gives mi plenty of time to read and think and do math. Sounds like I'm crazy but I think I am still sane. Please let something nice happen soon.

2009-09-21T16:26:00.004+08:00

I can change my font again, but I'm a little lazy to. Everyone's reading perfectly fine like that anyway right? Wasn't always a big fan of fanciful stuff too. Think I'll just keep my posts this way.

September's ending, and I wish it'd end faster....not that I'm any excited about october or november, but it's closer to feb next year. And of course, christmas.

Becoming abit paranoid. Things can change suddenly right? Too much hope.

Am starting to study math and chem in camp....don't want to go into university clueless about what's going on. I don't care what people think. It's quite fun actually....I still retain quite some knowledge of differetiation, but I think integration is going to be more difficult. And I forgot all the trig stuff already.

Passing time at home trying to sing while playing the piano and it's hard....I'm concentrating too much on either singing or playing. Not that I can sing very well, but playing just the melody of a song is kind of sian after awhile....singing makes it more fun. Rather enjoyable trying to make my own accompaniments for the songs too.

I'm now very taken in by this statement "this statement is false". Can this sentence ever be right or wrong? If it's correct, it would be saying that the statement IS false, in which case, it can't be correct. If it's wrong, it would mean the statement is true, and that would in turn mean that it is telling others that it is indeed false, which wouldn't be right. Interesting?

2009-09-13T12:07:00.000+08:00

it's been awhile since I last posted, sorry! a month....been in taiwan for 3 weeks, and then had a week of off which ends today. going back to camp later at night.

taiwan was really fun if not a little hot, still summer there and the sun really glares sometimes. can't say much about the time spent with the trainees, but it was enjoyable all the same. rest and recreation in kaohsiung and taipei were fantastic, did quite alot of shopping (but bought not many things back anyway) and eating. shopping and food in taiwan is better than hong kong I think, a little cheaper if you know where to go, and better eats. think taiwan, hong kong and japan'd be my favorite holiday places. not too keen on europe, but visiting switzerland would be nice. or canada in america, or seattle to see the fish market and eat seafood. getting dreamy now.

spent much of this week scoring songs, playing random games on my xbox. playing piano, whacking my punching bag and going out. hope I can get used to camp life again....been a month since I last was in there. 5 more months to ORD, not as short as it seemed before taiwan. still got some stuff to do before that I think.

Am now tearing in between bioengineering and biological sciences for university courses. last chance to choose is next year, and they may not even accept mi. quite afraid of engineering now though, after hearing from jacq it contains alot of computing, hard math and generally stuff that brings mi a great deal of mental discomfort. but no one ever got anywhere without abit of discomfort. as my old sergeant major said, pain is good. alot of pain is extremely good!

my helicopter's spoilt. a balance bar dropped off, and though I tried to glue it back on, it wobbles awfully when flying, like it's about to break apart. what a let down.

2009-08-14T21:57:00.000+08:00

something very bad is happening to my blog dashboard because everything is white and blue and black and has times new roman font all the way. I think it's something to do with my connection....?

leaving for taiwan tonight...or more accurately tomorrow morning, early morning. leaving for airport soon, won't be back till early september. everyone take care, to those having exams, all the best! if some half whack student like mi can get through you all most certainly can. to those university people going back to school have fun there!

NDP

2009-08-10T21:50:00.000+08:00

I am still unable to change my font. And do alot of other things, I suddenly realise....something's wrong with internet loading here. It's the same on other things as well. Not that it bothers mi overly.

Happy National Day everyone and of course to my beloved Singapore. Yes I am proud to be performing defence segment in NDP show and I don't care what other NSFs say. Only wish I could have been there among the crowd to sing the National Anthem, take the Pledge and cheer as the Red Lions descend. I shall watch NDP next year! Every National Day is different and meaningful!

Now trying to score 2 songs, and hui you na me yi tian isn't easy. My accompaniment from the other parts of the song to the chorus sounds a little disparate. Hope it's not too noticeable. Leaving for Taiwan on friday. Can't wait!

2009-08-03T17:55:00.000+08:00

something appears to be wrong....I can't change font or color or letter size. Not that it really matters anyway, but....ya, something's wrong.

sorry I haven't been posting, been....I won't say busy, but I been occupied. Yeah, that's the word. Alot of things on my mind. Flying off to Taiwan in 2 weeks time, a little less. Trying to run 2.4km in less than 9 and a half minutes. Not that that's what I'm very concerned about.

I look carefully in between the keys of my keyboard and am disgusted. I must really get that keyboard cleaning gel from challenger someday.

NDP rehearsals are over and the real thing's next week. Do remember to look for mi I'm all the way on the left side of the platform facing the stage! 7th guy that comes out of the staircase entrance.

Passing most of my time reading, scoring songs and (at home) playing with my toy helicopter. Got one, it's very fun but prone to wind gusts.

Don't have much things to say lately, really. Life goes on, though I wouldn't mind if it went a little faster, if not for memory's sake. Got to return to camp somewhat soon.

2009-07-12T21:00:00.002+08:00

Piano exam just round the corner. Like, this coming friday. Die, fail! I haven't tested out the piano at the exam venue. Couldn't book a practice date, so I don't know what to expect. If it's a very hard keyed piano, die, fail. Cannot trill.

I've been thinking alot lately, about alot of things. At least it keeps my mind occupied when I'm chionging around doing army stuff. I hate to talk about army stuff, so I'll leave that out of my posts.

Nothing much to say, perhaps I'll have more next week after my piano exam. Hope I pass that.

2009-07-05T18:28:00.002+08:00

I am quite....taken up over these few weekends. My weekends are going to be reduced to 1 day from now till like end of july, and that 1 day's going to be taken up much by piano and driving lessons as well, the day being sunday. July's a rather packed month for mi, most of the time being spent waiting. That's what you do around 40% of the time in the army. So sorry HO people I think that outing's going to have to wait! I may not be able to find the time, and I have another commitment I must make good on as well.

Very little civilian time I have left, reduced to a little less than a day a week as NDP rehearsals end rather late on saturday nights. In fact I'm quite much rushing this entry out as I got to go....already. Won't have night out this week cos of rehearsals....for yet another parade. Die, fail, piano exam also, die, fail fail.

Got to go now, hope everyone's doing okay.

2009-06-29T20:27:00.004+08:00

To those who still don't know, I AM IN NDP!!! Okay to some people (especially other NS guys) it isn't anything much but to mi it's pretty up. It's almost a once in a life experience! Life is made up of experiences. So getting to experience something you may not have the chance to, in the same way, is definitely to be enjoyed! So profound. But given a choice, I will not do NS again!

I think I want to try to get that gel thing to clean my keyboard up with. I can see the dust at the edges of my keys. Kinda makes you think what's actually down there. Wonder how that gel works though. If not, I'm gonna have to remove all the keys one by one to clean up.

NDP rehearsals are on saturdays, so we get 1 day off in lieu of the saturday we're rehearsing. That day is immediately used on the following monday so my weekend's pushed forward by 1 day, sunday-monday. So sad, I much prefer saturday nights out than sunday nights. Not many people like going out on sunday night too cos next day's working day le. Which led mi to be walking circles around plaza singapura alone again for almost 3 hours after my driving lesson ended. I suppose there'll be quite alot more of such walks till national day's over.

Piano exam coming in soon and I still can't really tell baroque music from classical if they sound too much alike. Die, fail! Hope my pieces and scales can pull mi up.

On the flip side, I get to look forward to taiwan after national day. That's an army thing I won't mind doing again. So bubble tea (original) and night market here I come.

2009-06-14T20:12:00.003+08:00

I think I'm turning into quite a monster.

Had class chalet over this weekend, sorry HO people I didn't organise something for us! I went with the chalet as I haven't seen them for a very long time, some of them since last year!

It was very enjoyable indeed though....barbeque second night standard, costa sands pasir ris, card games, talk and food and happy times. Makes mi feel oh so sad I'm booking in later and this week must go outfield. Shan't complain. It was great to see everyone again though! Even though I don't contact some of the others much, we still maintain very good ties with each other! I think....something unexpected happened on the last night as we were about to leave for my house though....rather amusing actually. Won't mention who it happened to, but it was a first for mi! I'll watch what I drink in the future XD

Currently now feeling very tired, didn't get much sleep over the last 2 nights. Chalet does that to you haha....shall return to camp earlier to sleep tonight. Maybe I'll try to make a HO outing next weekend.

Oh, yeah, and happy birthday to nathalie! =)

2009-05-31T20:52:00.002+08:00

I've been gone a long time, that being VERY long....sorry! To those who come here and actually read haax....my internet was down for quite long for unknown reasons, but now it's back! Shall go back to posting every weekend when I can. Sorry for my absence!

Yesterday's Resonance at VJC was really fantastic....it was great to see Yan Ru Amanda Xin Ni Rebecca Dajess Shiqi and Michelle again! Somehow I was wondering where Liting was though. Thought she was performing? But the performance was very good! Better than the harmonica exchange! Had a great time there =)

Quite tired from last week, but this week should be quite okay. Hope to make another HO outing the week after, haven't gone kbox with them yet! Now is june holidays also so must chen ji or everyone will be busy again. I suppose, for the A level grads university will be starting somewhat soon as well so must chill out before all the chaos begins!

Now passing time reading alot and playing harmonica. Yeah, I suddenly like to alot. Hope my bunk mates aren't too bothered by it. Scoring songs as well, all the usual stuff. What I'm worried about though, is my piano exam....it's june tomorrow and my exam's supposed to be in july, which means I have 1 month left. Given I can only exit camp on weekends, I have only 4 weekends to practice my piano pieces. Die, fail! Hope they give mi somewhere along the last weeks of july.

I've got to go back to camp in somewhat of half hour, so sad life. You know sometimes it mystifies mi why army guys like to chat about their army life so much....outside camp. I find it a waste of time to talk about things you don't particularly enjoy when I can talk about something much more fun and interesting to share. I guess some army stories ARE funny and worth sharing, but I kinda dislike talking bout army when I've booked out.

Going off to pack my stuff to return to camp! Hope this week'll be a nice and uneventful week. Bye!

2009-05-03T18:25:00.002+08:00

HO got silver for SYF. OK la actually, I'm not really so disappointed, all the other schools got silver as well. I think the judges got lazy as harmonica's the last, they dun care le just anyhow heck the results. Not entirely HO's fault also. It isn't bad already, so dun emo! I mean of course we wanted gold everyone wants the best but it's already there, at least you can't say anyone's better than us yeah. Just take it the judges did a bad job. Bad judges.

Dun think I'm coming home this coming friday due to various reasons.

Somehow, I think I screwed up my NUS application. I didn't get into anything. Maybe my app was too last minute, or too un-serious, or I really didn't do well enough for any of the courses I chose, which I dun really think is the case. Ohwell...Guess I'll be sticking with NTU.

Sorry I couldn't post last week, comp was acting weird and I had to format it.

Life's kind of freeing up.

2009-04-19T17:13:00.003+08:00

Not very sure what to expect of this week, but there's a high chance I can't come home this friday....ohwell.

Booked out on wednesday night thanks to some magic from I dunno where, but it was a good break. Managed to go back to visit HO, and that's probably the last time I'll see them in a very long time. Doubt I can go see their SYF performance.

Speaking of HO, their performance at the VJ exchange wasn't bad I guess. But somehow, I kind of think the 1st song is somewhat of a wrong choice. The 2nd song's very good though! You all play it well. Miss the days I was once back then practising for SYF as well. So far behind le. Haiz....hope is the 1st step on the road to disappointment.

Really really hope I can get off on 30th to watch SYF. Means alot to mi.

2009-04-12T20:09:00.002+08:00

Sorry! No time to say much now....got to book in within an hour's time....die, fail! Anyway, returning to jungle again this week for 3 days, and apparently booking out on thursday, which is good! Only the booking out part, not the jungle!

Harmonica exchange @ VJ was really fun! Will blog more about it next post, I'll make it thursday night if I really bookout on thursday.

Going back to camp le....blehx!

2009-04-05T17:08:00.002+08:00

I just come back from what could be the worst week of my whole life. Spent 5 days straight in the jungle....plus this thing called a swamp walk which is exactly what it sounds....which is also where I sank up to my waist in mud and got stuck countless times in that stinking muck. And I had to continue wearing that same uniform for at least a day. It's not the EEEYUCK factor most people would think because I'm so used to wearing disgusting clothes this just counts as rather uncomfortable and more smelly than usual to mi. It's the fact that my boots were all slushy with slime and I had terrible blisters on my feet that they weren't helping. Every step was like, needles.

But that aside, I'm strong! I can take this sort of thing man. HAHA!

Watched Knowing yesterday. Quite a disturbing show. Sorry Siting think I was overreacting abit at the end haha. It's just a show! But quite a good one. At least, out of the parade of unwatchable movies so far, this one's quite a winner.

Want to eat more Manhattan Seafood platters, and drink more strawberry milk tea.

2009-03-29T16:53:00.002+08:00

Going back to tekong this week. What'd I do to deserve this? It just rained very heavily, which means tekong jungle's gonna be nice and muddy and wet sludgy. The perfect tourist destination for the soldier.

JJ concert yesterday was fantastic! Very successful! Better than the 1st! Not that the 1st was bad, in fact it was great which means this one was epic! But of course, it's LIN JUN JIE man....what else can you expect from him? WAHAHA....helps take my mind off army for awhile. At least I had a good time last night at the concert. I so envy JJ Lin! Because he ORD already!

Now I want to learn to play the piano and sing at the same time more than ever. Not easy. Think I won't be able to go for my piano re-exam as well, as this year's very packed. Die, fail.

Miss lifeguard course. I miss OCS canteen's carrot cake, 2WO Sebastian and the swimming pool at SAFTI. I miss HO people, going back to visit HO practices and the AHS piano. I miss working at the airport, and airport guides.

Applied for NUS reapplication 1st choice chem engineering 2nd choice computing 3rd choice FASS. Is that funny?

Must go pack stuff for outfield this week. EEEAARGH.

stayout ending

2009-03-20T23:21:00.003+08:00

Don't know if I'll be able to get used to the monotony of camp life again after 3 weeks of stayout. A little less than 10 more months left in the army....JIAYOU MAN. That shall not be an issue....I'm strong!

Now want to do alot of things and have neither the time nor munny to do most of them. I want to watch JJ's concert, and also watch race to witch mountain, terminator salvation (when it comes out), fanboys (when it comes out), harry potter 6 (when it comes out), transformers 2 (when it comes out), and slumdog millionaire (which is about to phase out, if it hasn't already). I also want to go to kbox and east coast park, though I think the latter is a long shot....people rarely like parks nowadays. But I still think rollerblading, fooling around on a beach and eating seafood is one of the best ways to spend an evening with good friends.

Went back HO today only to find they cancelled the practice after lunch. Another long shot. Spent the whole afternoon whiling my time away at AHS playing the piano and stoning at the empty canteen. But thanks Pow for coming to join mi at 85.

block leave

2009-03-16T22:17:00.003+08:00

Now getting another random week of block leave....forced block leave, taken out of our yearly leave. I suppose anytime spent out of camp should be appreciated anyway.

Just finished lifeguard course....wish it could have lasted longer. It's one of the very few vocations in the army where you learn to save lives instead of taking them. Probably the only one, in fact. After much swimming, sunburn and shouts of "victim is drinking water", I'm finally a certified lifesaver. Sad to see this course come to an end, but nothing good in the army lasts very long.

Went to AHS chinese drama's concert on saturday night and it was fantastic! Yang Zi invited us ex and current tpjc people to go....most of the plays were quite abstract but I still enjoyed it! Well done Yang Zi! You acted very well! But when you all were cutting the other girl up it was quite scary! =D

Sunny coming over tomorrow, General Ben possibly on wednesday....hope to go back HO on friday.

My piano exam was really quite bogus. But thanks to Huiyuan and Eunice for your concern! Hope I can at least pass haha. Good thing I reregistered in september!

lifeguard course

2009-03-08T22:55:00.003+08:00

My back looks like it's covered in weird dark scales. Sunburnt from lifeguard course. Lots of swimming and sun, at least we get to stayout.

Hoping to do allright for piano exam on tuesday. Good thing I registered another exam in september so I get another shot, cos I think this one's going quite long. But thanks Eunice, Huiyuan, Yan Ru, LEE and Oswald for wishing mi good luck!

Nothing much to say again, or actually it's because I'm in a hurry to go to sleep. Can't get enough sleep over this course. It's at boon lay and I stay here in pasir ris. Inconvenient, but I still appreciate the stayout portion. Good freedom.

Will blog again soon, or try to. HO outing think this month cannot again.

2009-03-01T20:19:00.003+08:00

I think I can stay out this week, and the next. I think, I hope. Lifeguard course.

I'm a complete hopeless shot at the live range in the day, but I can hit targets quite well at night. I would've failed my range if my night score didn't pull mi up. It's either for some reason my aim is more zhun at night, or I'm really a bobo shooter and got lucky while it was dark.

Nothing doing this weekend, met what no today for some bang bang and will meet him next week to do some taekwondo I think. If I'm lucky, I'll blog again tomorrow night cos I'll have booked out, or not.

Piano exam pieces am playing quite well indeed on my piano and very lousily on any other piano. Better hope the exam piano is the same type. Meanwhile, I'm completely hopeless at describing the stupid piece for aural.

Will organise HO outing soon. Or try to.

paranoia

2009-02-22T20:29:00.002+08:00

For anyone who notices, the number of posts on my blog has fairly substantially decreased. Special reasons.

Somewhat, I'm getting a little more confident for my piano exam. I can recognise fairly simple chords for aural, though if it gets tricky I'll just have to guess. If sight reading comes out a piece that's supposed to be fast and light, I'm still dead.

I'll try to make another HO outing soon. Once this month is through, I guess afew people'll be freer? Kbox can't ask too many people de neh. If not must wait too long for mike, not fun.

Nothing much to talk about. Must go back camp soon. Wah piang eh.

2009-02-07T22:29:00.002+08:00

Just got the letter for my piano exam. It's on 10th march.

Die, fail. Confirm fail. In effect, today being 7th feb, I have 8 days left, since I can only bookout on weekends, blast SAF far and between. 8 days is far insufficient for someone who hasn't even started arpeggios, can only play chromatic thirds at half the required speed and has done completely zero for aural.

For those who're familiar with the prerequisites for a music exam, you know how much trubble I'm in. For those who don't....I'm good as gone. And it's not the usual kind of things you say before exams ah sure die la, this is really, honestly a gone case.

But I'm not the kind to disappear without fighting. I'm gonna whack my pieces and whatever I can over that 8 days and show the angmoh examiner what I can do. At least at the end, I can say I did what I could.

That aside. I find myself having a slight contempt for NCC people. It's quite disconcerting to see someone distinctly younger than mi wearing army uniform, and with an astonishing number of rank stripes just below his shoulder. Then you look at his epaulette and see the letters "NCC" written there and you go ahya chey he's only in NCC. Small prejudices.

Alot of things making mi extremely irritated past week but I guess everything's more or less okay. I dun like dwelling on stuff.

Got my PDL. Passed final theory test. Doesn't mean much to mi, I'm learning driving more so to get it out of the way before university.

Going to see what I can learn online for aural now.

after cny

2009-01-28T21:22:00.002+08:00

XIN NIAN KUAI LE!

As usual, I am late!

Nothing much going on about new year....stayed home until it was time to go grandma's house then go there bai nian. Stayed there till late then went home. Very no brainer kind of day. At least I get a long holiday though....book in tonight's at 2359, so it's a very short week. Just so nice, I volunteered duty this sunday. Make use of the short week. In a sad way, but same thing.

Driving final theory test's coming soon and I haven't done nuts about it. It's next weekend. Better start reading something. Dun think I can rely so much on common sense. Hope it's nothing to do with pushing around toy cars....though that'd be quite fun. Bring mi back to the days of bike course.

Trying very hard to score out an accompaniment for should've said no. Somehow, I dun think it's a very piano-friendly kind of song.

last week before new year

2009-01-18T19:14:00.002+08:00

Xin nian is coming and I dunno what to make of it. Apparently we're forced to take leave this friday. If that's true, I'll probably go back HO.

Speaking of HO yesterday's outing was rather funny....I atfirst planned to ask small group only, but in the end turn out 9 people came! I guess that's a good thing. If I ask no one seems to want to come! But Amanda Yanru and Liting do some magic, and more people appear. I guess I need more....sms-ive charisma. And Shihui, I'll ask you next time, dun angry k? Really I got nothing against you de!

Watched Ponyo with Yangzi and it is VERY nice....atfirst was scared it'd be childish or what not but it turned out to be very good! Very well drawn and cute! And thanks Yangzi for watching with mi! =) the jack neo show seems to be very promising too. Thia is really a comedic novelty.

Hopefully there won't be anything much this week....dun feel like chionging around just before the new year. If we can leave on friday, so much the better.

Think I may not be heading towards sure failure in my piano exam after all this time.

1st week of '09

2009-01-11T20:26:00.002+08:00

1st week back in camp of 2009, and it wasn't the most fantastic week of my life so far. Being enemy was quite screwed up, spent hours on end staring at the supposed direction of enemy approach and no one came in the end. Apparently they decided to "change route". So too good for the enemy! If they came in my direction, mi and my buddy would've slain them without mercy.

Currently now trying to record myself playing songs on the piano....I need a good recording device, the ones found on handphones aren't that great....can't hear my left hand playing. So far I've got 3 songs played by mi =) dou shi ni by guang liang (with a mistake in the middle >.<), yu jian by sun yan zi and super mario's original sound track. I know the last one is lame....I scored it for fun. It wasn't easy all the same. Thanks Wangyou for the new songs! I'll try to score them soon.

Hammering away at my exam pieces at the same time for my piano exam which isn't far away considering I can only come out of camp on weekends to practise...the bad thing about this kind of piano exams is they can't be postponed. Oh well, I'll won't give up XP trying to finish my own song too.

And anyone got iTunes cd can lend mi? I had to format my comp and everything's gone....my own iTunes disc I...can't seem to find it. Very possibly, I lent it to someone who was in the same situation but I can't remember who anyway. Booking back into camp soon, think I'm staying out a few nights this week, probably 2.

Oh and Maxjax, your drawings are great! Keep up the cool work man!

new year

2009-01-02T16:09:00.002+08:00

happy new year everyone! I am late again, like christmas....dun be surprised if I'm also late for chinese new year.

New years day was boring, I wasted the day away. The night before at orchard road wasn't much better either....NOTHING at all happened along the length of takashimaya. Maybe I should have gone for the fireworks @ marina after all.

2008 wasn't that crappy to mi....or at least, there were its own share of good things. Started off with a little of the robinsons job which wasn't bad, and then the airport guide job which was probably the best job I will ever do. Of course, got into a bit of trubble with the APD but I got out of that fine and nice, so allswell. And then it's straight into army and the rest is stuff I'll much rather forget than type in here. Most of it's already been typed in previous posts anyway.

I dunno what I'm gonna resolve to do this year. Not really one for making resolutions anymore.
1. I must....
forget it, 2009's an ENTIRE year of NS for mi. OMG that sounds like, DISGUSTING. And this coming monday is the end of my block leave and straightaway on 5th I'll be back in the jungle for a terrific week. I can hardly wait. I probably won't be able to do anything at all this year anyway. National Slavery takes up quite alot of time indeed. And I'm supposed to take my piano exam mid february to march. Die, fail.

I done asking HO people out for now, and possibly for ever. I guess the only time we can all meet up is stuff like farewell. Which, of this year, will be one of the last I can go to without embarassing myself by saying things like "yes I AM from HO I was sec 4 when you were in kindergarten please let mi help with the barbeque and I'm a FRIEND please DON'T serve mi like I'm some zhang bei at CNY family visiting thanks". Thank you Yan Ru Liting POW Amanda Zoe and Geoffrey for supporting my idea and helping mi out though. Thank you Xinghua Jingyi for at least replying my message, and Xiaojess for replying mi on MSN.

Busying myself scoring and recording myself playing songs. Need a better recording device.

christmas

2008-12-28T11:27:00.002+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!! HO HO HO.
I know I'm late, better late than never right? Appeared that over christmas I was in a place where my comp was inaccessible so I couldn't blog over it. Something rather fantastic happened over the wonderful festive season....my phone got a virus and now EVERYTHING INSIDE IS GONE....bo bian the service center guy said must reinstall the software so must format the whole phone and do @#$% dunno what so all my 1240 messages are gone. Happy christmas to mi! More or less I wasted the day away anyway.

Nix HO outing today, too few people can come. Think it was kinda screwed up anyway. In the end only like 5 people? Notmuch business....according to POW I'll scare the juniors off so must not give mi ask them out. In a way....I agree. But ohwell....to mi it was more the idea of HO alumni outing. Shouldn't be like that though.

Hoping something incredible happens over new year. 2008 was kinda cool.

christmas coming

2008-12-22T22:34:00.002+08:00

Christmas is coming and I still have no idea how to spend it. Now got block leave all through till 4th Jan HAHA to all those still in camp too bad you can't come out. Right now, I feel like going off on an intergalactic space adventure.

Finally managed to find the brand of shampoo I been looking for over 2 weeks. Herbal essences natural volume must be phasing out. I should have bought at least twenty bottles to last through the whole of NS. It's a wonderful shampoo. It's apparently got marigold, angelica and thyme inside it, it's purifying, and it smells nice and looks delicious.

Passing time now scoring songs and writing random doodles and surfing net....not the best of pastimes I ever had, but everyone else seems to be busy with something so I can't seem to go out. My timing's great. Just as I get probably my longest break ever in my 1 year 10 months of service, everyone disappears. HO practice also bo liao, though I dun blame them....deserve a break for the hard work they put in. Shiyong if what you're saying is really true....I dunno what to say. I've most probably lost all my standing among HO members now. Probably even some of your batch people wun know mi le.

Now I shall slack away and think of what pattern to chu for christmas, taking of course for granted there will be someone to chu that pattern on and I will come out with one in the end. Blehx....I'm not making sense.

block leave coming

2008-12-14T19:13:00.002+08:00

Block leave is coming! I'm so happi, although I dunno what I'm gonna do with all my time. Someone please tell mi you haven't watched Bolt yet. And I want to watch Yes Man too. Jim Carrey really has an elastic face.

Just came back from meeting with 06S02 @ Settler's Cafe and it was really quite a nice place....Quelf was a fun board game but I think too many people le....wait too long till next turn. Pity we had to stop....I was winning! I think.

Thanks Eunice for listening to my lousy problems, sorry if I bored you out too much. I'm still going nowhere where that's concerned.

Currently thinking what I should do to spend off the free time in camp this last week....hopefully we won't have anything too tiring. SOC's over and I think I did quite well for it, now just hope my uniform meets Encik's standard. Iron and starch like mad. Think it's quite lame to do that to an army uniform....in a parade with so many people, who's gonna look at you? In fact, from where they're sitting, who can SEE you?

Seriously wants to go to the cinema. Wants to do some christmas shopping too.

last weeks of 2008

2008-12-08T17:08:00.002+08:00

There's something I respect myself alot for. No matter how busy things get, I still manage to get a post up a week. I know it's a lame thing to be proud of. But....I am anyway.

2008's ending kinda soon and I realised time really passed extremely quickly. No, I'm not going to get all sentimental now and go reflecting over the whole year, but when you been through alot and look back on all the crap you pulled yourself out of, you suddenly realise it passed real fast, and it wasn't so bad after all. Perhaps army makes mi realise that especially effectively, I dunno. But that's how I feel. The main thing in army that I still can't get used to anyway is the bad language. Some people must always mix in a vulgarity or two in every conversation they have. I dun get why....I hate foul language, as it is. The english is quite disgusting, and the hua yu is definitely not cool.

Went to help out with Dancescape concert backstage at the request of Tan Jia Yi from AIRPORT GUIDES, and I must say it's really quite an eye opening experience. I was taking care of the videos in the control room....quite an easy job, but I literally press one button and the whole concert starts. Timing! I was so scared I'd screw up, but everything went fine I think. Yes Jiayi, the concert was honestly very good, though I couldn't really get a great view from the control room. If can though, can help mi get the soundtracks for the song Elegance? It rocks!

Currently going to make a christmas shopping list. This is kinda unlike mi, but oh well, there isn't much to do in bunk nowadays. Scoring a song and writing some stuff up at the same time. Seriously needs nice music and a good book.

AHS Harmony!

2008-11-29T20:03:00.002+08:00

Just went for AHS Harmony concert yesterday...it was good! And I'm not being biased....HO improved alot from when I last went back to visit....ok the pai zi maybe still abit gan but it's very good to mi already, the song isn't easy haha....but VJ really needs to change its sound system....several times a good piece was interrupted by large noisy booms and crackles from the speakers. Maybe it's mi, I don't get along with speakers. I demonstrate a particular aversion to them when one appeared in my bunk afew weeks ago and screwed up my nice peaceful surroundings.

Back to AHS Harmony....I think the concert was pretty well planned though one song guitar was abit too loud and drowned out HO (GRRR) and there was this funny song called Walk in the Park to which I couldn't figure out the props. OK I wasn't wearing my specs (they were broken, and I was half blind the whole night) so all I saw was blurry people wearing flower petals and a tree trunk swaying. I thought it was kinda lame....but clap to their effort anyway. Takes quite alot of face to wear flower petals, go up on stage and sway for 3 or 4 minutes. There was a dance item which once kinda random....doesn't really match with the rest of the songs to mi. Couldn't see much anyway. But anyway, the concert's good =) clap clap HO! It's good already just because you all are in it =D

After concert took some picture then followed some HO members back to AHS to help them with the instruments....think chen lao shi's a really funny guy. After slacking in HO room awhile went down to 85 with POW, Qin and Amanda to eat then went home le...quite a night! Wish I could get to know more HO juniors though....after POW's batch leaves, I dun think I know anyone else in HO le. I'll miss farewell, so dun really think I'll get much chance le. You all la, put farewell on a monday. Lol....jk....sec 4s who're going, enjoy your farewell. I enjoyed mine thoroughly, though not the time we all had to go....ahh, *memories come rushing back* wish I could go back to even before that. OK, I'm getting all sentimental. I should stop.

Hope there's a chance I get to perform as an alumni together with HO! I shall pick up my old harmonica again (yeah, I remember how to play it and I dun think I'm bad). Now there's a chance to revisit old times XD

back from taiwan

2008-11-23T12:27:00.002+08:00

HELLO! I'm back from Taiwan! Suddenly feel quite lazy to blog about it....I can't say too much anyway. But what I said before is true, we did walk incredible distances with incredible load. BRCC's finally over and I got my jungle hat. Alot of other people are like, big deal, piece of cloth! But it's quite something to mi.

Rest and recreation in Taipei was fantastic, ate alot of cool food. Most Taiwanese speak chinese so getting around isn't a problem, though once I start talking they know straightaway I'm not local. Same way with everyone else. For much of the RNR I was wishing it could last longer, and half wanting to quickly fly back home. Not sure which part was winning. But I was quite happy to get on the plane back to SG anyway.

Now hopefully much of the xiong stuff is over and get more slacker le....bad news for mi when my bunk mates bought a speaker system and are blasting their rock music in bunk everyday. Actually I wun go so far to call it music rather then noise. I can't even stay in my own bunk in the afternoon, got to escape over to Edmund's. Sorry, I'm more inclined toward....slightly slower, quieter songs.

Hope I can bookout in time to eat dinner before going HO concert this coming friday. Looking forward to it! Jiayou HO!!!

brcc start....fail

2008-09-26T23:35:00.003+08:00

BRCC's starting next week monday! Not sure what I'm gonna do.....just close eyes and fast march through everything. Apparently there's alot of outfield in BRCC....every week go jungle. Not that I mind...it's trubblesome, but that's what you get used to in army. After BRCC can relax le, that's what I'll look forward to. I'm strong! XD

Been doing alot of thinking lately....somehow I think I've been fed alot of NATO. I must be understanding I guess. As always, for the past I dunno how long.

Badly want to meet up with airport guides....too long never see them le! The strongest bonds I feel I ever made were in Harmonica back in AHS....of which I think no one remembers mi anymore anyway. By now, less than a quarter of the people there would even know my name. It's sad, but when you leave somewhere in this manner, it happens I guess. Soon I'll phase off completely, and when I go back to visit it'll most probably be a who the heck are you welcome. Right now the people I feel closest to are airport guides, the good generals, and maxjax and company. Octave section, which was so bonded before probably lies in shambles now. OK la maybe notso bad....but HO, the way I see it, is definitely not as together as when the previous 2 sec 4 batches left.

One of the worst things that can happen over bookout is not having anything to do over the weekend.

random hk pics

2008-09-05T18:47:00.009+08:00

Specially for Yan Ru, I shall upload some of my pictures with BMT haircut....if anyone doesn't know what that means.....see for yourself. I only got pictures of myself in Hong Kong with Roddy and Zhengyu where I've got short hair so I can only use those.

I'm not sure this'll work out as I expect it to, it's my 1st time uploading pics.

OK I just did the first....and it turns up at the....side? Didn't expect this, I selected center. Anyway, that's 3 of us @ some place halfway up a hill overlooking some of HK city! Great place....if you can't tell which one's mi, you probably shouldn't be reading this blog.

This is mi, with HK city in the background, taken at golden bauhinia square, if the location means anything to you.

This is 3 of us @ repulse bay, and I look like I'm elbowing Roddy in the head. I don't think I'm doing a very good job of organising these pictures. Enough of mi, let's see some HK scenery. This is starting to get fun.

Now you haven't been to Hong Kong if you haven't seen this....it's the view of Hong Kong city from the Peak at night. One of the best night scenes in the world! The best for mi is still reserved at Japan, but this isn't bad either. Sorry for the weird orange clouds, camera isn't so zai.
This is the view from the avenue of stars....fantastic place....dun really want to describe it here, I'm getting kinda lazy. It's a jetty with celebrities' handprints all over it.

The rides from Ocean Park....not as spectacular as the other views, but memorable all the same....oh, I forgot the 6 of us photo....
Haha that's 6 of us @ Kimberley Hotel, Jacq, mi, Rod, Zhengyu, Tammy and Josie....now I'm getting all nostalgic. Stopping here for now....think I should have done this much longer ago.

wondering

2008-08-30T21:44:00.002+08:00

4 weeks is up and bike course is just about ending....next week is the last week and I'll definitely miss it. Actually though, I done some simple calculations......stay in actually gives more weekend time than stayout. Of course, stayout is 5 1/2 day week but for stay in I book out on friday, and back in on sunday night. So I get 2 weekend nights at home....for stayout, minus the weekday nights, I get 2, but very short weekend nights cos I'm usually in bed by 11pm....got to wake up at 6am the next morning. Plus, more than half of saturday's taken up. So in a way, stay in may be a little better.

Good generals coming over tomorrow to run and slack and eat lunch, so at least got something to look forward to. Monday's a public road riding test, hope I dun screw it up....there always seems to be some crappy situation coming up when I'm leading the convoy. My instructor's the most significant person on a Singapore road....everytime something goes wrong (which, with him around, happens rather often) he'll horn a few times, accelerate to the offending person, tap his helmet and make a signal "empty". Quite childish, if you ask mi, but infront of a road full of civilians, it gets quite embarassing.

Again I've nothing much to say....just posting to keep this blog alive since the tagboard doesn't seem to move much....visitors please tag! Haha....Yan Ru I'll try, but please dun laugh too much ahhaha.....I look like a....geek clown.

staying happy

2008-08-21T21:01:00.002+08:00

More than halfway through stayout course now....wish it could last forever, but nothing good in NS is designed to last for long anyway, except perhaps getting into a choice vocation.

Passing most of my free time on Facebook, something I don't use that often until recently....and searching lame youtube videos and the occasional game. Would be great if could meet up with the Goberlin and Verny or holiday bros or airport guides (all of them) or the good generals every weekend, makes life seem so much better. Stay in will be sian again, but having those to look forward to makes it much easier....and after course it'll be nights out plus bookout, so NS WILL get better!

Heard some whacked up guy bought 2nd Lieutenant rank, attached it to his epaulette and walked around camp, earning himself 2 weeks in detention barracks. Sounds oustandingly smart. When you meet intellectual rejects like these you sometimes wonder what they're thinking when they do it....if he was walking around in public I'd probably give it to him, though it's pretty stupid anyway, but walking around camp is a big miss. And I thought some people were dumb.

Got a huge blister on my foot from rollerblading last weekend and wearing boots everyday isn't helping it. Seems to be drying up and healing very slowly....but its not really hurting anymore so it's allright. Hoping something fantastic happens soon.

hong kong!!!

2008-06-22T22:47:00.002+08:00

Just came back from hong kong yesterday with Roddy and Zhengyu! One of the best holidays ever....plus met Jacqueline and her 2 crazy friends in HK too!

Arrived in HK and went around recce some parts to find outlet stores for Rod and ZY's clothes, got lost and ended up going when the store was already long closed. Ohwell, crap happens. 2nd day went on half day city tour (was not as bad as Rod expected it to be...for mi) and then went to Ocean Park! Found the girls there....then we went on the rides and it was way past cool. The Dragon had 3 loops on it and though it wasn't that fast it was still quite sui. Then Jacqueline mi Rod and Zhengyu went on the ABYSS whoa it was quite freaky! To those who dunno what I'm talking about, there's this ride that brings you up VERY high and holds you there for awhile, then drops you all the way down. That's it....Jacqueline was beside mi and while we were ascending we were like wth are we doing here argh this is so damn high all the way up ahahhaha....but the drop was GREAT! freaky, but great.

3rd day out @ HK's Disneyland and, as I expected, it wasn't as great as Japan's. Nevertheless still had a good time there....was less crowded than Japan's, so we managed to sit the space mountain twice. After Disneyland went to find the girls again and we ate at a restaurant near our hotel....speaking of food, in HK the wanton noodles are SUPREME. You won't find bigger wantons elsewhere. And the dim sum is a must try too....if you can find affordable ones. Food in HK is rather expensive. After dinner that night the 6 of us came to our hotel and we played asshole dai di until really late at night....then took them back to MTR station and we went back to sleep. 4th day was the girls' last day so we shopped with them awhile before waving them off to the bus to airport. Then we went about our own shopping and more or less did the same for the last day and out of HK back to SG.

Much enjoyed this trip, though I dunno how to really describe it in detail...takeaways - a Von Dutch t shirt, an Esprit t shirt and black jeans, a puma cap and a CN cap. Not so bad....Rod bought a mountain of football jerseys and spent a crap load. He spent more munny than I even brought. Rich guy.

Tomorrow going to new unit le! Posted to -
HQ 4 Singapore Armor Brigade, Recce Troopers
Kranji Camp
Well, it's not CCI. But as I said, I'm alright with armor recce too. Just wish mi all the best! To those starting school with exams, good luck too!~

1st bookout from army

2008-04-26T23:38:00.002+08:00

Just booked out from Rocky Hill camp at Pulau Tekong yesterday! Now there's one thing about blogging about the army that I must keep to. I can't....blog about the army. According to OC the training regime is....somewhat of a secret and we can't "carelessly" let others know about it or we will be charged with, ah, fraternising with the enemy.

So I'll try to be....subtle. Training is fairly tiring but largely manageable, everyday we chiong around the camp running all over the place. Had Xkm (X being a variable number) route march carrying a Ykg (Y being another variable. learn the drill) field pack through the jungle which was probably the most tiring activity so far but it was still okay. So....I'm strong! Maybe it's the result of my ODAC days. Not that a slacker like mi really had alot of ODAC days though. So that means....I'm strong! Bhb

Our sergeants are really nice people who, compared to other platoons' sergeants are really great. I see others getting pumped and tekan all the time but ours are quite patient with us, to the point that sometimes I feel we should be pumped when we aren't. But I'm not complaining anyway. I can't reveal their names or 1st Lieutenant ABC will weed out this blog, polish it off the face of the world wide web and sling mi into detention barracks.

Army is actually, truth be told, quite fun. That is, if you look at it positively of course. Sure we're quite shagged everyday but it's still allright so far. However for all the language of defending our country's honor and independence and upholding our virtues and liberty, you can't deny that army is all about....killing people. I hate guns. Their only purpose is to kill people. Don't get mi wrong though. If (touch wood) some country comes invading and threatening us I'll gladly pick up a weapon and drive the bastards off our land. It's just that....I feel between humans and humans, we shouldn't have to be doing all this. But whatever, it's the way of the world. I took the oath when I became an NSman and I real well meant it, particularly the last 3 words.

Booking back in tomorrow 2015 hours, seems abit too fast for mi. Will be out again by next week! Hope everyone's doing okay =P see you all around!

2008-04-08T09:22:00.003+08:00

Just had one of the best outings I ever had yesterday....airport guides! Haha....went to watch the bucket list in afternoon which admittedly was quite boring at first but then it started becoming very nice and quite touching also....that guy's super lucky to get some billionare to be his room mate.

Then after that went to eat Sakura @ Orchard....nice buffet! Took alot of photos and laughed alot....we're a great group man haha....hope to see you all again when I book out! =)

Speaking of book out, I going army on friday le! Some...thing will pick us up from pasir ris interchange and bring us to lovely de guang dao for 2 years of free food and exercise. I'm quite looking forward to NS actually! It looks quite fun....though of course I'll be missing everyone outside (maybe especially airport guides!) while I'm in camp....must stay in touch ya?

For my that case right for those who know it, those people haven't contact mi back yet and maybe they forgot all about it. Which is probably for the better? I dunno, just hope for the best.

If this is my last post before I go into the army, just wishing ahead to everyone, TAKE CARE and JIAYOU in whatever you do and don't forget to HAVE FUN! To those in sec 4, good luck for O'Levels! To those in J1, all the best for promos! To those in J2, best of luck for A'Levels! To those applying for university, hope you all get into something you'll like!

I'll see you all AROUND!!! For my photos of the Sakura outing yesterday (which aren't that great coming from 2MP camera anyway) do visit my friendster page because I'm lazy to try posting them here!

Once again, all the best to everyone! For those guys going same day same time as mi to tekong, see you all in camp!

die, fail

2008-03-19T18:52:00.003+08:00

to whoever thinks you're in bad shape now, they're always people more suay than you.

like mi.

dun wish to go into details....just hope everything'll be okay for mi.

to anyone getting ideas, it has nothing to do with "shi lian".

results day A Level

2008-03-08T22:11:00.002+08:00

Yesterday! The day JC students slog (debatable in my case) for 2 years to reach....A Level results day! Admittedly, I didn't feel alot of tension as results day drew closer....I just passed everyday with my usual mindset. Even on results day itself (an off day from work) I was pretty bochup about it....I still went about my usual running and slacking and stoning. It's not because I'm super confident or anything....guess I'm just not the kind to be super jittery about results.

Met Sarah Abigail Szeming Yongsheng Joanne Whatno to eat at airport first before going off to nanyang with Sarah....we chose the completely wrong way to go there which turned out to be the very correct way to go on that particular day. 1430 is the official results time, and at 1500 hours Quek was still jabbering. We reached school considerably late and they were still announcing top students -.- was about to get seriously bored when Sarah's name showed up. CONGRATS on your 4 (I think it was four) distinctions! Told you honor roll people dun have to worry about anything~

Finally everyone went downstairs and it was time for the more normal people to collect results....

Math A
Physics B
Chemistry B
GP A
Economics A

Well it went better than I thought it would....considering I'm not the all-out mugging type and I hand in roughly 10% of my homework. Math teacher was especially surprised. Quite happi with how I done....now just hope that I can get into NTU's engineering courses. According to the people there at open house, it should be no problems....they better not be pouring hunny in my ears.

To all those who're happi with results, CONGRATULATIONS! Enough said.

To those who, well, aren't....DON'T WORRY! It's not the end of the world....shit happens all the time, look forward~ as long as you put in the best effort, no regrets =)

Dreams may get further away, but they cannot disappear! Cheers to A Levels!

cheers to airport guides -

2008-03-05T16:08:00.003+08:00

It's been almost 2 months since I took on the airport guide job, and I just want to use this post to thank all my friends and colleagues I met at the airport (since everyone's all disappearing anyway) ranked in NO ORDER of merit whatsoever....

To Jingwei, for being my 1st friend on the job....I know I've been quite lame with the what no business but I still take you as a good friend! Will look for you when my comp is ready for the museum.

To Huiyuan, for being probably the best partner ever on the job....that day's transit tour was wonderful! Definitely the best working day of my life =) I will not forget it!

To Jackie, for signing on to this job with mi.....even though we're not assigned to the same shifts, thanks for job hunting with mi! Haha....ano koto o ganbatte masu yo~

To Ee Lin, for being a great friend and eating together at the secret staff canteen! You must go claim justice for being swindled over your new job!

To Ganesan, for telling mi which orange trees give sweeter oranges (though I never really got down to eating them) and for striking the 1st blow against manfield. Cheers to that!

To Joanne, for laughing together over all our lame stuff at work.....we still haven't been assigned to same location before! Not fair...haha hope that happens soon!

To Abigail, for all the fun times and activities and a nice person to talk with in real or over sms!

To Larry, for the Magic and funny times on the job! We must meet up for a Magic sparring sometime again!

To Cheryl, (though you probably won't remember who I am) for the "advice" and nice talks at B pier! You seem to have disappeared very quickly o.0

To Sarah, for being a wonderful person to talk to and share things with....talking with you make the time at work seem so much easier and happier! Must stay in touch after you quit haha -

To Katrina, for being completely insane and still a great friend to be with....you laugh alot, but you seem constantly trubbled by something. Whether I'm right or not about that is none of my business, but hope that you're smiling for real!

To Zhonghao, for randomly taking shots of all of us with your super enhanced thousand dollar camera.....you know, that hobby seems as cool as it is lucrative. Viable option for staying alive after retirement maybe! I think too much -.- haha keep in touch big man. My name is NOT guo rong!

To Jiayi, for sharing my interests in the mystical realm of wu gong and also for being insane as well! That dancing video was GOOD lo why you delete

To Bezner, for being the youngest among us, but still joining us for our activities with enthusiasm! I must find you in WoW!

To Ryan Scott Aeria Jian Kai, for having a cool name and all the crap at the stations....you're missing the new hyper upgraded van Andrew's now got.

To Curina, for fooling around with Susanna and all the funny talks when I, erhx, run away from station....hope you can get a transit pass soon! See you in transit then!

To Yi Hui, for being a nice person to talk to also and the jokes about lame passengers....you seem to have disappeared though!

To Andrew the Carrier man, for being the best driver ever and turning your van into the ultimate entertainment vehicle! That will be one of the things I will miss also when this job ends!

And to everyone else I haven't mentioned, Catrin, Hazirah, Ismail, Ernie, Sufian, Szeming, Kat-i-rina, Kent (both of you), Dominic, Dana, the list goes on....I think no less of you than the people above! Thanks for making this job a great place to work at! Though it's hard, hope we can stay in contact as long as possible after everything ends.....cheers to airport guides! A job I'll forever remember!

2008-02-25T14:58:00.002+08:00

Hello! I am back....I think I should post more often....once it hits april I won't be getting much time to post after all yeah haha.

Some things I find real funny about working at the airport. Somehow I think it's human nature when we're doing something, to forget the more simple things. I can tell passengers how long it takes on average to walk from a flight pier to the business class lounge and all the restaurants on the 3rd floor of terminal 3, but I can't tell where the nearest rubbish bin is. When I was asked that, I stoned for 5 seconds before glancing around to look for it (and making myself look like a retard because it was nowhere in sight - it was just behind the pillar I was standing infront of).

Some of my colleagues got a cool lucky break. JJ Lin was at terminal 2 last week, flying off to KL. The difference between this case, for mi, and Jay's case last time is that
1. I'd much prefer to see JJ than Jay. S-Pop WAN SUI!!!
2. There wasn't a huge crowd around JJ...in fact, it was only him and the airport guides. They took photos with him, got his autograph.
3. You notice the pronouns I used in the previous point do not suggest inclusion of myself in them. Yeah, that day was my OFF DAY. I guess it's karma. I saw Jay in person, so I'm supposed to be suay and get an off day on the day JJ shows up.

Sometimes I think time is passing way too fast. It seems only last week I was back in Hokkaido eating fish and potatoes for breakfast. Now it's Feb 2008 ending fast. I think working where I do makes mi nostalgic. Should spend less time plane gazing at the piers. -

being happy -

2008-02-12T22:58:00.000+08:00

HELLO! I am back, and happi chinese new year everyone! Xin nian kuai le! I know I am terribly late. Dun need to rub it in. But ya, better late than never right! Wakakas....how was everyone's new year? Mine was fairly....uneventful....spent much of the time playing bluff with friends and talking rubbish with cousins haha....that's what new year's about anyway right? It was quite fun la to see everyone again =)

I haven't counted my hongbao munny, so dun ask mi how much I got. How MUCH I got is quite immaterial to mi anyway....I'm such a nice person, ha ha ha. Airport job is very good, very good....having lots of fun there with fellow airport guides....oh and if anyone wants to find mi at airport during my work shift, do note that my shift is 6am-12pm, though I can extend it on overtime to up to 6pm should I wish so....if you're coming around that time and want to look for mi, DO tell mi beforehand so I can extend my shift....quite a few people have turned up to try to meet mi but I've already gone back so ya.

These few days have been fairly mundane other than the new year....what no came to upgrade my comp to 2Gb RAM and it's fantastically fast now though a better graphics card would do nice, not that I play many games anyway. Spending most of my time scoring zhou jie lun's Secret song on piano and making stuff....and speaking of zhou jie lun, I MET him at the airport! So cool right....everyone wanted my photo of him, I could have marketed it....one of the perks of working where I do. But it was so hard to get a clear shot....not that I'm crazy over him but it's not every day a celebrity stumbles upon happi changi and ends up right behind your skytrain station post. Guess I struck it big. I suddenly cannot remember if I already posted about this. I think I did.....did I? I'm lazy to open another tab to check, though I vaguely remember something about alot of zeroes. Mysterious.

just forget

2008-02-01T15:58:00.000+08:00

Sometimes there's an advantage to being slow to update. You never know when your opinions about things change. I'm not someone accustomed to eating my words, so I'll leave it there.

*~friendship - transcendence - surreality~*